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Last week this week
I've been going nuts just about like, how I look and how uncomfortable I feel once I go out. :/. I got my hair cut two weeks ago. Hated it. Still do. Decided to dye it a really dark black. Soft black it's called. Hate it more. Uhmmm I am still holding a hefty 130 poundsss because the shit. I am going to start taking this stuff called 5htp, ( Read more... ) -
Picking up from 420
I went to strohls and pat rolled a "junt". We just sat there for forever and I kept spacing out hard core. Had some cereal came home had more cereal. Went to bed with visions of monopoly boards in my head? I had my first psychiatrist appt. It was dumb and unhelpful just told me I have depression and some anxiety. But that weekend was ( Read more... ) -
Fuuuucked up
Okay. I can't do antidepressants anymore. Ssri's have been reported to be linked to tics, memory loss, low libido, excessive weight gain, seizures, anxiety attacks, insomnia or fatigue, and a slew of other horrible long term effects. How could doctors prescribe medicines that have only had studies of six weeks done? Most of these medicines don't ( Read more... ) -
Past two weeks? Plus Easter weekend?
I don't think I wrote about Easter weekend. Thursday was a half day, so nice out. Bob Evans. Little of shopping. Got three perfumes from Vicky secs. I think pat and I just took sinbad for a walk. It was sooo nice out. We mightve stayed in? Probzzz idk. Friday I may have had work with him? No. Fuck I can never remember anything. We ( Read more... ) -
What the fuck is wrong with me
Even as I read things that are supposed to make me feel good, and get hugs from the person I love the most, and know that I am goi to graduate soon, know that I live comfortably, all I can do is feel my heart drop even lower and cry even harder. It comforts me more to hear of negative things. Maybe I just hate how the nice things can't make mr ( Read more... ) -
I am fucking things up
I did west Chester last weekend, the same weekend as the one year. nd I think that was also the cookout weekend. So Friday the nineteenth I went back to pats. The weekend before hohoho
Friday was beerfest. It got busted. I didn't play but later in the night we hear knock knock state police open up. Ran upstairs. Some people got caught. We ( Read more... ) -
Time to remember
I can start with last week. Friday I just stayed at pats and didn't do much. Got up early to go to west chester with Tracy and I was bored to death. Kop mall, bought nothing. Got home and I think I went to strohls and played kings rule and had to make a fart noise before each drink and made fun of Andy the whole time. Made a fire outside and ( Read more... ) -
Idk when I last updated
I'll just do this weekend. Since I hate school, I skipped Friday. I slept over pats on Wednesday and I think we watched the show taboo on fat people. Thursday night I fell asleep. Friday we went to the mall and that's really it. That night was yousefs forty fort party and was nice ish. Sam lenza was there who I haven't seen since I was like ( Read more... ) -
weather
the weather is sunny and rather warm. please continue, and also get warmer. the likely hood of that happening though is slim. it will get warm, and the buds on trees appear, it gets cold, and so they stop, and then it takes awhile to get warm. whatever ( Read more... ) -
not nuff time
since ive been sort of busy lately i didnt get to finish the retelling of my weekend. Thursday night, right. At yousefs, yousef gets really drunk and goes on about friends, erin, his weight, hooplah. pat gets really drunk. eggs yousef on to break his ceiling tiles again...table is flipped. POT is smoked as pat was obnoxiously calling it. ( Read more... )