i wish i had a friend, just one, that i could talk to when i feel like this.
its awful to drown when you know no one is going to reach out their hand to you.

i've been having such a sad awful week. i can't even cry actually. i'm just sad always. but the cat comes and cuddle on my belly even though he's such a little asshole to everyone else. it makes me want a pet. there is something about the love i feel from him purring on me that makes me feel a little bit less like shit ( Read more... )

Pacific Institute of Culinary Arts

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if you're a bird, i'm a bird.

i have nine stories, each wrapped up in a pretty box with a bow. maybe someday i shall open them.

i love alaska so much. i have been there twice so far this summer and i want to go back so badly but i don't see it happening cause i leave for europe so soon!

some ridiculous photos from when we went to skagway to ride on the train and one from haines for the bike relay.


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diana krall does joni mitchell's 'a case of you' live in Paris is the most bombass song in the world and I just want to lie on the floor all day with it turned up real loud except the neighbours complain

you know when you are walking down the street at five or six and its just getting kind of dusky and you are walking past houses who haven't shut their curtains yet but they have the lights on inside and the house is kind of glowing and warm looking and you can see people moving around inside making dinner and sometimes the tv is on or there are ( Read more... )

nothing is true anymore.

one night i broke into tears and told him about the baby, tiny pink little mouse fetus floating in the toilet among all the blood. the internet said 6 weeks. for six weeks i was sharing my heartbeat with this tiny perfect thing - half me, half him. but it didn't want my blood, nutrients, love pumping into it so it left. i saw it and i flushed the ( Read more... )