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Date
I laugh to myself when I read the text. She suggested we dine at a place downtown called "Raw." I tell her, "I'm totally down for raw." Or something to that affect. Either way, I find it rather comical..for obvious frat boy-esque reasons.
She's beautiful. Her silky smooth blonde hair lays across a petite and toned body with a perfect little ass. ( Read more... ) -
iron paradise
it was after deadlifting and lat pull-downs. the music in my wireless headphones was bumpin. I was lost in the music, lost in the moment. I could feel the weight of the world slip away. muscles burned fiercely..I felt like I could do anything. I wanted to fuck, to fight, to rape, and pillage. I zeroed in on this feeling and embraced it even more. ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Two phone calls later, I feel better. It's a start. Friends today, mean a lot more than they did back then. My outlook feels more optimistic. I feel more connected ( Read more... ) -
celebrations and dissappointments
days turn into weeks, weeks into months ( Read more... ) -
memories...
So vivid. I watch movies in my head. I see you. I hear you. You are in my dreams. Not the center, not the main focus. You are there. As if everything is okay. Sometimes I think very hard..I'll focus on a particular memory. I'll think of every single little detail; the time of day, the temperature, the smells...the warmth ( Read more... ) -
Smile
..and when she smiles everything melts away. She's so beautiful.
I tell her we can be friends.
I tell her I want to still be able to spend time with her.
Our eyes lock and I'm lost. In that moment everything is okay.
"And in this moment, I am happy"
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Surrender
It is mid June 2012.
I dial the number for Macy's. I ask for the store manager. I hold for a minute before she answers. She tells me I am fired for dishonesty. I ask her to elaborate ( Read more... ) -
My name is Josh and I am an addict
Here you will find memoirs and ramblings of a twenty-six year old student and recovering drug addict ( Read more... ) -
missing you
Tonight I watched Sunday's season finale of the Showtime series, Shameless. Moving, emotional, and raw would be understatements. The show literally put me in tears. There is a scene where the patriarch of the Gallagher family, Frank, is in the hospital..he's dying from his addiction to alcohol and drugs. One scene shows the young son, Carl, sitting ( Read more... ) -
friends that turn into family, last forever
(This is the end ( Read more... )