Me and my mom had a big talk earlier. Taking about feelings. was good ish kinda wierd. I think things at home might improve but will take time probably. Oh well we will see. Things might look better in the morning. we'll see i spose...

(Also... been to a Chimaira gig. waas awesome in the pit loads. just all night was wicked :D)

so far shite... i cut myself a bit and then got reely upsedt... then went to watch fiddler on the roof and saw cat. theres still summit inside me 4 her. even after all this time. its nothing major but i just felt happy seein her again. i dunno tho. i not gonna go there at all.

Me and my mom just had an argument. practically over nothing. she got reeli pissed off with me and she ended up in tears. i am upsetiin her sooo much but i dont know why. ok i am not talking to her much but i have never opened up to her that much. maybe she doesnt like who i am becoming. maybe she hates me. i feel so shit. i feel guilt in me and i ( Read more... )

wot to do. feel upset. y... hannah. shes confusing me. i think friendship is the best i can hope 4 but i cant see it bein a good 1. i like her. and i am gettin attached. this is exactly wot i didnt want. but its happenin. i need to distance myself from her. I want to but theres summit inside me which makes me go near her. help?

i just cut myself. i dont no why. i have sum broken glass and i just used that. i dont no why i am so frustrated. blood stoppin now but i cant believe i did it. i gave it. i hate myselkf for that. do it again i am tellin myself. i wana punish myself but i dont no wot 4. lifes too confusing, .... help?

Was a reely kool night at redwoods i thought. adam was there which was good :)... other ppl there i get along with reely well. i reely enjoyed myself. only bad thing was Hannah fuckin with my mind. she seems interested sumtime but then not all the time. she was with this lil kid earlier. hmm she kinda fukin with my mind. i no she dont do it on ( Read more... )

Was great to see adam today :) was good to see him in school. will post later in detail probs :S

hmmm dun buggar all work. had a headache. i soo fucking lazy. i need to get my act together but i cant be arsed. i gonna start bass lessons and driving lessons soon. cant wait. be sooo kool. arghh well. things r ok i spose recently. nothing made me cut. nothing to make me stop 4ever tho. i have thought about it a lot of times. dunno y. just have. ( Read more... )

today was pretty crap.. had a hair cut, just a trim. but i dont like it lol. i bit fussy. and then after that i didnt do anything stayed in my room. pretty boring. couldnt be arsed to do anything :( never mind i wrote a song about cutting. not finished yet. will post it now tho ( Read more... )

The unknown girl who confuses me. She's very confusing. but kinda funny at the same time. Sometimes she will blank me round school, then others come and talk to me. And then she will wait ages before she will walk over to talk to me. as if she is waiting for me to go and talk to her. kinda wierd. Kate seys she gonna try n play hard to get (refering ( Read more... )