My father wants me to put all my things in boxes, then have all the carpets torn up, then have all the walls repainted. He wants me to come with him to his girlfriend's family's Thanksgiving ( Read more... )

My brother is like Harrison Bergeron now. His vision is bad; His sight is extremely poor in one eye. The only way to correct this is by forcing that eye to work more, to compensate however eyes do. He has been given a special prescription that will worsen his vision in his good eye, and drops to do the same ( Read more... )

"Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist. He who would gather immortal palms must not be hindered by the name of goodness, but must explore if it be goodness. Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind. Absolve you to yourself, and you shall have the suffrage of the world."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self-RelianceI have always ( Read more... )

I am the worst possible element of the world. I am joyless and useless. I am a petty liar and thief. Don't trust me with anything. I am ungrateful and unable to care about anyone. Every night I am more certain I should not exist, but I don't do anything about it. I wish I could be awake in sleep, or open my eyes every morning to see the sun, and ( Read more... )

There are a number of things I have to do. Let's count them, shall we ( Read more... )

I checked the mail twice today, to be honest. I hope I'm not the only one ( Read more... )

But if you only knew, down deep, what pains
are fated to fill your cup before you reach that shore,
you’d stay right here...

( I want a girl who gets up early )

If you have ever been over my house, here is your invitation to come over again. It is very much a different place. We are burning my mother's presence out of the house in every way possible. It is kind of disturbing how easy it is to make someone not exist. Leave their mail in a bag by the door. When telemarketers call, tell them she doesn't live ( Read more... )

When I try and focus too hard on writing, my vision blurs and I can only think about peripheral things. I still want to, though ( Read more... )