Honestly the title has nothing to do with what will be mentioned here.  You know how sometimes that horrible past somehow wiggles its little ol' self back into your life when you're really trying so hard to erase it from the far recesses of your own mind? Well this time it decided to worm its way back into my memory via a ridiculous comment left on ( Read more... )

So i apologize beforehand if this comes of as extremely giddy, gushing, sickenly sweet word "vomit", but it is very true.  The amazing wonderful man I talked about previously?  Yep.  Still with him.  I can't say how unbelievably blessed I am to have found him and how unbelievably lucky that he's more than I could have ever hoped for and dreamed of ( Read more... )

Well I think whatever illness I got hit its peak....after mucho amounts of sleeping (and not making any classes this week ><) i think its finally going away...sorta.  Still have no appetite, my system feels like its trying to jumpstart itself by giving me random bursts of energy only to send me into coughing fits after it spends itself in roughly ( Read more... )

And I definitely have, and this time?  I think I did right :)   Once again, I was reminded that things have to fall apart for something better to come along to build them back up stronger than ever.  It could seem like its too good to be true, but its far from that.  I just can't believe that I hit the jackpot with this one:  he's smart, sweet, ( Read more... )

Like hell i do >.<  I want to rip certain parts of my body out, but that's besides that point.  Blah...I'm cranky, yet in a good mood...oxymoron anyone? I don't like crying, even if its over something good.  I watched the video I made for my grandma a few months ago and I came close to crying near the end.  Not quite sure why though.  I have been ( Read more... )

so despite a really gross and disturbing dream last night, my break has been pretty interesting thus far.  My sleeping schedule is roughly what it was when I'm away at school....except I wake up later due to getting the required 8 hours and then some.  Enjoying my time off with family and the couple outings with friends from home here and there.  I ( Read more... )

I feel like all I ever do anymore is vent about the same damn crap anymore.  I know its over.  I know its way past doing anything about it.  I am over it...then why the hell do certain things pop into my head?  I know I know....ignore it, stop comparing things, let it go, ignore it, think of something different, ignore it, don't let what happened ( Read more... )

I'm sorry.

I'm still kicking myself for not attempting to graduate this semester. Really, I am. I want to be done so badly right now its not even funny ( Read more... )

I just don't care anymore. End of story.