It's one of the days when your just not happy and not sad.

• but I did make a new friend. That's a little something to be happy about.
• I sat somewhere new during lunch.

But there are somethings that really bothered me today.

• This boy (that i used to sit near) followed me to my locker. The disturbing part is that he had only been there once before ( Read more... )

Ok. School has started. LIke a week ago. But anyway, I hate it. I feel so alone, I don't know anyone. I seriously don't have ANY friends at all. I don't know what to do, I feel so alone and my personality doesn't allow me to just sit down next to somebody and strike up a conversation. It's sad, really. I know it's probably like not healthy to think ( Read more... )

My Birthday is on Saturday. I'll be 18.

Everything's my fault. My mom's mad at me, but I don't really know why. I'm just upset. I don't feel welcome in my house. I feel like I'm being blamed for everything, I wish it wasn't my birthday, it makes it feel so much worse.

ishes <3's to peices

But, now I'm anxiously awaiting their return. They should have been home 28 minutets ago, or there abouts. Anyway. I wanna just kiss him. When he steps out of the car. But I won't, that wouldbe disrepectful to his decisons to have a girlfriend. That would be wrong. I had to do somthing. So I updated. But that's all I really have to write. And they ( Read more... )

I can only get so low. Everyday it get's worse. This guy and I were supposed to hang out today. But >there is always a but< his friend from Missouri came into town. This is where the problem comes in, he never told me that we weren't gonna hang out. I seriously liked him. I wasn't in love with him. I didn't want him to love me. I just thought it ( Read more... )

I think the subject line says exactly what I really want to say: Boys are dumb and they suck fat balls.

Lovely,

Ish Ash

I know I don't have a normal life. I know that nobody has a normal life. I wish I had one though. I wish there was such thing as normal.

• I want a teddy bear that talks.
• I want to be more social.
• I want more happiness.
• I don't even know what happiness is.
• I know what happiness isn't though...

I hate getting on the computer and writing how depressed I am. But that's how I'm feeling. Then everyone comments that they hope it gets better. That's nice, but I want more. Not from readers, from my family. But how do you ask for happiness? I don't push people around, I'm so shy, I don't ask for stuff all the time, so I don't know how to ask for ( Read more... )

I'm crazily cackling to myself right now. I'm so mad. My friend and I were supposed to go canoing today, but she called me and I missed the call because I was getting everything together. So when I finally got a hold of her, she said it was gonna rain, that we should go a better day.

1. Yesterday my dad and I were watching the weather, and it wasn't ( Read more... )

• Why don't parents know anything?
• my parents asked me what i wanted to do for my birthday

i have no idea what i want to do for my birthday. my parents both went to the bar for their 18th birthdays. I'm disgusted, i don't know what to say, they wanted to do a family vacation for my birthday, that would be sooooo lame though. it's not happening. and ( Read more... )