I washed my van today. My dad put the extend-a-mirror thingy(for when you're traveling with a trailor or camper) on my stand thingy. So now I have a mirror. I cleaned the inside of my van and, I had a lot of cans and bottles, so I took them back. I saw Heather and we decided to hang out after she gets off of work. I had to call my dad to ask if it ( Read more... )

Why does life have to be soo complicated? I feel soo overwhelmingly sad today, most days lately. It's almost my birthday, almost my 18th birthday. But I've been feeling so depressed. I don't feel like I have control of my own life. It's kinda like the Sims. It feels like someone else is controlling me. Telling me when to go to the bathroom and when ( Read more... )

I'm soo depressed.

• I can't seem to get over Joe. It's a horrible fixation. I got some startling news today though. I talked to him at work today in private. "I know you probably weren't as attached to me, as I am to you, but how did you get over me???" Joes answer,"I don't have an answer." That's basically all he said, he said it few times. I was ( Read more... )

I'm so bored...My life is practically meaningless.

• I hate my body.
• I have really fat thighs....I'm disgusted by myself.
• What can I do? Diet.....that's the only solution..
• Or excersise. It's hard. I'm lazy. I admit it.
• I wish I was desirable. I want to fall in love, and be loved back (it doesn't work one way...believe me...think Joe).

I went to the doctor today and yesterday

yesterday he said it was gastritis now it's the flu.....

hmmmm he also said i was cute...Obviusly this guy is crazy!!!!!!!!!!! DUH!!!!!

Brit I'm dying.

I'm so tired, my bones and muscles hurt. I got a shot. and so now my arm hurts. So i can't type a lot!!!!

um I'll talk later, I feel like it's mono, i can ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do next.

OU OU!!! I had another Total Movie Moment!!!!!

Ok today that kid I like, was further down the hall and our eyes met!
So I waved, he smiled, he went to wave and dropped something, then he really smiled!! and he bent down to pick it up, and then by that time I had walked past him.
It was so cute, Brit!
Ok maybe it wasn ( Read more... )

I'm so happy!

I've had my eye on this super adorable guy! And I saw him twice today!

1. Once this morning, I was in the van driving in to school this morning. He saw me and I gave him a misceivious smile.
2. Then later in the hallway, it was like from a movie. The gym door opened and wind blew my hair back and his eyes met mine. SO FREAKIN' CUTE ( Read more... )

Brit I seriously love you more than anything.

I will never forget you or anything you've written. Please know how much I love you and always remember me.

forever love,

Ish

P.s. And don't forget decaying corpse or all the things i've written about him.

Oops I did it again....I hate it when guys like me. I mean, I don't really, but I feel bad about this Ryan thing.

Other than that I had an uneventful day. But I did go to the Baby Shower over the weekend. That wasn't fun, but I got to see Brit. We almost saw Requiem for a Dream. It's a good movie from what I saw (which isn't much...). Other than ( Read more... )

We got our new computer. the monitor is 19 inches! its huge!!!!!!

anyway... Nothing really happened. i went to starbucks with my friend Katy(not pap-smear). we has fun and talked...caught up..Something brit and i need to do!

um..i'm just excited and can't wait to see you! and this computer is great! so I'll be using this one and not going to the ( Read more... )