It's been a long time since I updated.... I went over Renea's house Saturday night for her birthday and she loved the present I made her. It came out really good. She came over Sunday night and we went out with John. He had a bad mood tho but you know we all get our days ( Read more... )

So New Years is friday night and we are going to Justin's party and I want to bring Ryan and Al. Because right at midnight I want to kiss Ryan. I have it kinda planned out. It may sound stupid but I have been wanting to kiss him for so long. Even though he doesn't like me I am still going for it. I have to. I can't be scared anymore I am going to ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Corey... as a matter of fact Happy Sweet 16... Sorry I can't be with you to celebrate. Maybe we can celebrate in my dreams tonight. I will meet you there. I love you.

I'm so stupid. I hate it ( Read more... )

6 Place me like a seal over your heart,

like a seal on your arm;

for love is as strong as death,

its jealousy unyielding as the grave.

It burns like blazing fire,

like a mighty flame.

7 Many waters cannot quench love;

rivers cannot wash it away.

If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love,

it would be utterly scorned.

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• . . .WOULD YOU RATHER ( Read more... )

Um Fuck my last entry.

I could never give up on him. He is the love of my life.... My EVERYTHING. Maybe he doesn't feel the same way for me but no matter what I am not a quitter. I love him and I will wait till I am old and in my death bed for him.

<3

I'm so fucked up right now.

I love Ryan so much but I have decided maybe it's best that I give up....

So here goes my new life, loving him on the inside but just letting him go on the outside.

UGH I WANT TO SCREAM.

FUCK EVERYTHING!

For Hannah!


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I find myself always looking back to memories then looking forward in my life ( Read more... )