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[itanya_blade]

So, It’s been a very long time since I have done an update. I’m not good at this whole journaling thing, but here goes:

Family stuff:

Raz and I spent 5 days with my mother and her husband after Dragoncon. I knew it would be difficult but I thought the time with my mother would be worth it. I could not have been more wrong.

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[dubbage42]

What has gotten into her??

Damn.

And as for Razs dad's beef - what the everloving fuck does he care for? I mean, really.

You gotta wonder about "family" sometimes, ya know?

Of course, now I am wondering about those more personal reasons that this is insulting.

Deb

[bexfiles]

I know a bit of how you feel, after all when my dad remarried he changed, to the extent that he hit me for the first time in my life, and also (with provocation admittedly) threw me out the house. My stepmother threw all my clothes away and sent me every single personal document of mine in the house in my first term of University.

All I can say is that after 5 years of not speaking to my dad, we're now as close as we ever were. But it sucks to live through it, and I think you need to remember that you make your own family from this point on, and hopefully you do it without watering down your beliefs or morals.

[itanya_blade]

I'm afraid that even if my mom were going to be close as we ever were, it wouldn't be that close. I am sure Marcus remembers how my mother and I get along.

If not for him, I would have stopped speaking to her at 21, instead of 35.

[bexfiles]

I'll pass that on to him.

I have to admit a hand in making him stay in touch with his parents.

But my point still stands, family of the past is not often as valuable as family of the future.

[foxfire74]

*waves* Hi! Rashona here...I snuck in to point you toward Nublet pictures if you wanted them (current entry on my LJ), but I know the feeling. My dad turned all weirdly bigoted on me when I was about fifteen, and to this day I feel very oddly betrayed by that. So yeah, no particular words of wisdom, but I know where you're coming from.

[itanya_blade]

Nublet pics! *scurries off*

I am generally just depressed about the whole thing. My mom was all I had. I thought we were making progress towards some sort of general acceptance. There were a number of things that mom told me about her husband that make me uncomfortable, but that was the last straw. It hurts, but life sucks like that.

Baby pics are better anyway.