I'm doing okay. I'm working 40-60 hour weeks, which would be horrible if I weren't so disgusted by who I live with and the state of the house in general. The library, its okay, in its way. Once you get used to doing nothing for so long you can do it. We just changed shifts for the second summer session and I'm stuck with this girl almost everyday I ( Read more... )

I was standing on the forth floor of the library today after everyone left and fora few seconds there was absolutely nothing going on in my brain. I walked down stairs and said good bye to a few people I see regularly but still don't know their names. Then, when I walked out side it started lightning, no rain, just the sky illuminating like a ( Read more... )

So, because I can't seem to focus on anything I ended up having to three-pete HoR this semester which kept me pretty stressed out. Then on top of that factor in the worst accounting prof ever and my general lack of any knowledge of the French language and I'll admit I wasn't expecting good grades this semester. I got an A in French despite never ( Read more... )

Listen. Im gliding. I'm just kind of going on left over momentum. I think this might be the worst summer ever. Really, this whole college thing is killing me I think. I never really wanted to go. I really only went because I thought I should. I wanted to move, as fast as I could. But I came here and now I dont really have anywhere else to go ( Read more... )

Its only two days in and I'm overwhelmed. The thing is I like my classes, I'm just not sure I can d everything they ask me to do. I don't learn that way. I was in the BAS today and I got really nervous, I thought I was going to have to go home. This winter brake was pretty amazing, I just wish it had snowed more. I really don't want summer to ( Read more... )

I'm glad I'm back at work, or at least was. And I'm glad I got to work today. I don't know how I used to spend every last second inside back in the day. I don't know if I'm ready for class to start though. And its not like oh, I wish I had a few more days to dick around and not do anything, it a genuine anxiousness. There are so many things to ( Read more... )

My dryer is the most pissed off piece of machinery that I have ever experienced. While its running it puts out this really high pitched squeal that I can hear even with my head phones in and turned up all the way. But other than that things are okay. I've been back in the boro for two days now and I've already done everything that is the least bit ( Read more... )

I get up at 7 tomorrow to sub at work. I was thinking today that being a nanny would be a pretty sweet gig. I think I could do it. That would be a great job right now, free rent and food, and if I could get my real fake job along with my imaginary fake job, that would be sweet. I'll be working in the baby room, all the kids are like 16 months old ( Read more... )

Finally, its getting cold. For the last three days I've just laid in bed currled in a ball and haven't moved. Its been nice to let my brain wake up slowly, like a dimmer switch being turned carefully. It nice to slowly come out of the dream rather than be woken up. I'm so glad the summer is finally gone. I think thats all I wanted to say. I'm ( Read more... )

Right now, everything is quite. Pretty much, everything has been quite for the last three days. I think that's okay. I really, more than ever before, don't know what I'm doing. I come in contact with so many people right now, and I don't know what to think of them. I usually tend to think that everyone is basically good, I don't know why, I guess ( Read more... )