Last night:
EPIC.
in every sense of the word.
Epic dinner.
Epic drinks.
Epic company.
Epic bar.
Epic martinis.
Epic puke.
Epic dress and heels.
Epic fall.
Epic heart to hearts.
Epic love.

21 is fun.

 My life is really good.
Really Good.

I turn 21 tomorrow.
I'm getting closer to my bff Steve!
I got THE BEST summer job ever.
KERRI IS COMING UP THIS WEEKEND.
as is my entire family.
and we are all going to have a great time.
and I am happy.
very happy.

but I need to spend more time
with Sarah.
and Carly.
and people I miss.

21 TOMORROW.
I'm a big girl. :)

 Pull me out from inside.
I am ready.
I am ready.
I am ready.
I am fine.

Really when it all boils down to it, we are all just scared.
Scared of being alone.
Scared of failing.
Scared of the unknown.
Scared of a million different things.
And I feel like this is why certain things go the way they do in my life.

Its something I've realized in the past few days.
I am PETRIFIED of getting into a relationship.
Granted,
I date more ( Read more... )

 California.
Getting Tan.
and annoyed.
but reading.
and feeling smart again.

text me and send me some love.
I would like some lovin.
traffic here is horendous.
xo

 California here I come.

So yes. 
Like everyone,
I have irrational fears.
And I don't like them being tested.
by my own sister for that matter.
I don't like being judged.
I understand people will do that.
and I'm ok with it.
most of the time.
but high school messed me up.
the people were really cruel.
most of the time I really don't care what people think.
but anyone connected to my ( Read more... )

dates.
flowers.
romance.
kisses.
cuddles.

but if I'm not getting that,
I'm more than happy being alone. 
s'all.

p.p.p.p.s. I tripped while cleaning my mouse's cage... and basically destroyed it. thank god my mouse wasn't in it.

I'm putting an end to this terrible day and sleeping. 
goodnight.

someone sing everlong by the foo fighters and the luckiest by ben folds to me.
that'd be nice.
kthanks.xoxoxox.

p.s. while cooking dinner, the stove caught on fire. awesome.
p.p.s. my house is freezing and smells like paint.
p.p.p.s. I hate you winter. go away.

homework.
if I can focus.
dang yo.