hmm....a lot of crazy stuff has been happening to me lately. im getting mixed up in things i know i shouldnt and sometimes i dont even know i got involved. its amazing how small this town is and how already my name has got around. people know me that i've never met before and know things about me that i thought only a few people knew about. i've ( Read more... )

i havent wrote in the a long time and the time i do write, im in the worst mood. i just got into a fight with my cousin. shes drunk and said a lot of things that hurt me really bad. i miss west palm so much. its indescribable. this place is not me. my family isnt even me. im so different. i dont know what to do. i want to get away but i have no ( Read more... )

its amazing how much people change when you move. i remember when i first move from ft.lauderdale, people that were my best friends since 1st grade were suddenly so different. they began rumors about me and i no longer missed ft.lauderdale. i was hoping that my move from west palm would be different, but its not. friends that i've known since i ( Read more... )

its hard to even have thoughts about someone else when your so stuck on that one guy. i had so much fun talking to the first guy and i really hoped, unrealisticaly, that something would happen. now someone more realistic has came along and i dont know what to do.hes so sweet, caring, sensitive...everything. and then theres the other guy. he reminds ( Read more... )

things have been so crazy here. well, they got really crazy last night. me and rhonda went to this kid Jason's house with her friend Nick. We've been there before (they're the only nomal people i've met so far) but we just hung out and shit. Then Rhonda left with nick for like 2 hours and left me there with people i hardly knew. I called my mom and ( Read more... )

i've stopped thinking about you. except for this moment in time because im hoping you'll read this and feel bad. you havent called in over a week. other things are more important than me. i havent called you either b/c im waiting for you to. o well.

so i guess i wont be going to west palm anytime soon. or until shannon comes back because she said ( Read more... )

i went into a deep state of depression last night. i've never seen myself like that before. it was because everything finally hit me. im surprised i snapped out of it. it was really weird. but im back now. im currently in my bathing suit in the middle of winter because i used this sunless tanner. it says it takes like 2-3 hours. my uncle was ( Read more... )

im falling way to fast for him. i dont even know why because i know in all reality that nothing could ever happen. i cant help it though. this is how i always am. but he seems like he cares. he calls me every night. i like that but i dont know if his intentions are genuine. i wish i was a mind-reader. it would make life so much more easy.

but ( Read more... )

he hasnt called me back since i left him hanging on the other line for a friend that needed my help. but i guess she really didnt because my advice had no affect what so ever. it surprises me how much people ignore their true feelings just to be with someone. i mean, people make up these false feelings to make an excuse to why their with someone. ( Read more... )

Yup, just when i thought things were possibly at its worst, no no no, of course not. While me and my cousin Rhonda were in gainsville, just hangin out, we get into a car accident. (at a red light) Some drunk guy slammed into this Tahoe and the tahoe slammed into us. The guy that hit the Tahoe tried to run and the cops had to chase him. it was ( Read more... )