the past two days have been so nice and ive gotten to see my friends in the same place! thats always fun ( Read more... )

this overwhelming thought has been a dark cloud over me for awhile now ( Read more... )

down.

because there isnt anything left.

i feel an ease in my heart but there is still something holding me down im not sure what it is anymore.

anyone want to donate a laptop so i can finish writting me books???

i want to feel alive again like im doing something more with my life.

now im living in coldwater ms.

its givin me time start on my new book and finish the last one soon.
but with all changes i find it hard to adapt quickly.

like it wen i keep myself up till 6 am thinking.

well its cold. i dont like talking to people that much.
my mind keeps me occupied.

life seems to be fading into a dark nothing day after day nothing piled upon nothing.

i hate my existance.

still in need of a job.

getting alert the youth back together

ive never felt as enraged as i have today so close to my fucking dream since i was 12 for this.

i need a hole i can just curl up in and hide.

i miss when i use to talk.

the band got signed today and we start recording tomarrow im pretty stoked on that i might be switching to second vocalist if we find a bassist ( Read more... )

two shows this weekend one in ark one in murphysburro or however its spelled.
i must say my first show in like two years im fairly nervous and excited i hope it goes well.

i need a computer so i can finish my book.