Betrayed

By your own flesh.

When that’s gone,

What is left/

Lost.

Alone.

Vulnerable, prone

To defeat.

Don’t cry over yourself,

You’re not worth it.

A speck on the ground,

From your throat there’s no sound.

You bother,

You bore.

You are nothing more

Than a frown.

I don’t want to feel.

I’m left to conceal

My pain.

I hide,

I deny,

What I’m feeling inside.

Nothing’s there.

Don’t know where

I can turn.

I don’t want to feel.

Nothing’s left to conceal.

End the pain,

Then you’ll gain,

Some appeal.

The cravings

I face,

While in life’s daily race,

Are unbearable.

I try

To deny

Myself from the tangible

It’s almost intolerable,

The shame,

The disgrace.

The urge overcomes,

The need to restrain,

A feeling so impossible to contain.

It calls.

And I answer.

Do just what it wants.

The empty,

Agreeable,

Weakly response.

Where is the girl

That used to laugh and feel free?

She’s gone,

Doesn’t know how to be.

Some sort of doom

Lingers upon

A now ticking time bomb.

Finish lines are impossible to see.

Why

Do you try

When the effort runs dry?

You see

The broken soul,

Through the pain in those eyes

Sadness ensues,

Nothing left to pursue.

Give up.

From perfection,

You’ve shied.

Ends and beginnings,
And losings and winnings.
Where is the heart
W'thout the twisting and spinning?

Find,
Create.
You encounter your fate,
And then might your true soul be grinning?

Swing yourself.
Do this...
Or else.
Try,
Yet deny.
You rose,
You fell.
Leap, damnit!
Eat.
Cram it.
You emote,
You bloat,
You hide,
You gloat.
Where are you, how far have you gone?

Write.
Don't fight.
Let life go and bite
The sould out'f you.

Don't do that, you fool.
You're not trying with all of your might.