i hate not being able to weigh myself. who the hell doesnt have a scale in their house? well, the person ive been staying with this summer doesnt. i dont understand how you cant wonder what your weight is...i swear i think about it every day ( Read more... )

you know what i wonder ( Read more... )

Like a month ago, I thought "You know, I bet I could give up this whole ED thing and just eat normally. As long as I stay healthy, I'll be fine and stay thin...anyways maybe I really dont need to lose that weight. Everyone has been saying I look fine." I dont know what the fuck i was thinking. I went along, eating "normally" for the past month and ( Read more... )

well today is my first day back on the whole eating track. it might sound weird, but im actually really really relieved to be worrying about food again. so far i havent eaten anything..lunch is an apple. idk what im going to do about dinner because the lady im staying with might take me out for dinner-i think she said chinese food..hopefully ill be ( Read more... )

Tomorrow. Im going to be back to my old self and back on the track to 105lbs...im setting the goal right now ( Read more... )

oh my god. its has been so long. i have dozens of excuses for not having been here in so many weeks. but i wont start with them because it doesnt even matter at this point. what matters is that i get back on track and stay there. im out of town for seven weeks and i want to come back to my friends and family ppl and have them say "omg youre so thin ( Read more... )

frickin disgusting. today i stayed at 200 calories. and then a bunch of us went to taco bell..and my friend was like "ive noticed the past 2 days you havent eaten" so i thought, ok ill just get the same thing she gets and shell back off. yeah dont ever ever eat there. there is apparently nothing that isnt filled with disgusting calories. so at the ( Read more... )

good day today. ive stayed at only 200 calories and i dont plan on eating anything tonight..those 100cal packs of cookies/crackers/gummies, etc are amazing. i can eat one for lunch and not feel bad at all. and hello, theyre only 100 cal. im planning on getting down to only needing one of those during the day and maybe a small thing in the evening. ( Read more... )

ugh i completely binged today..ive probably eaten like 1200+ cals. the only bright side i can can see to this is that at least i killed all my cravings and now i feel so disgusting that i will barely eat for a looong time. ew.

good day today..so far ive eaten ( Read more... )