i have no motivation and when i finally do have it nothing works and im frustrated. im also sick of this house and the way my parents are getting. sick of school even though ive had three reasonably okay days. i cant wait to just go out on my own and not have to answer to anybody but myself ( Read more... )

she had to go to bridgeton, though i still saw her for a little while ( Read more... )

life is too short ( Read more... )

today was so long i thought the first half of today was yesterday and today was actually saturday. i fucked up big time ( Read more... )

i dont know whats going on ever and its depressing ( Read more... )

i called her and went to meet her at this deering/ gorham soccer game with alex at fitz. it was raining the whole time, but it was worth it. then me and alex and justin watched that incubus video, which was sick ( Read more... )

i did nothing all day and went to work, and britaney wasnt there because she cut herself accidentally cutting tuna. so she came back into work to say hi and brought me cookies and i was worried but then i wasnt. and then i called her and talked to her for like 40 minutes. and, well, i guess i like her alot ( Read more... )

but everytime i burn incense i feel a sort of inner peace that i havent felt in quite some time. i guess i just wanted to write that because i miss this feeling. its like the feeling you get on a saturday morning when you just lay in bed and do nothing. and your alright with that ( Read more... )

but i think she likes me and we had fun. alex came too, and we watched monty python and the holy grail ( Read more... )

of making journal entries that say NOTHING. but i guess i understand them and you dont, which is okay by me most of the time ( Read more... )