well things arent going so great for me at all. every major facet of my life is either shut down or fucked up and im depressed- ive kind of sunk to an all time low and im trying to pick up my life ( Read more... )

WOOT ( Read more... )

WAS A MONSTER DAY jUST LIKE OLD TIMEs ( Read more... )

today is the day.

i also realized that i have tunnelvision.

im sorry if ive been a bitch to anybody lately but ive been stressed out and bored and busy and tired all week and im giong to try to have mroe of a positive attitude. try ( Read more... )

and right now one of my main goals is to make it into all state jazz band. and not just the a or b jazz band, but the small combo. so im giong to practice my ass off (i thought it would be way easier than it is). well ill settle for anything really, but im striving for the best. anything that will put me in a situation where i can grow again.

you know i figured out my problem with everything in the entire universe. im always in the middle of every spectrum that exists. my freinds are either liberal or conservative, im in the middle. im niether smart nor stupid, im a musician but i dont practice all day, i care about like 3 things when i SHOULD care about so much more ( Read more... )

hung out again and it was quite eventful. we drove around and talked and jumped around on the maze craze and changed a tire. i decided that im asking her out for real tommorow 'cause nobody makes me as happy as she does ( Read more... )

well ive been kind of down lately, what else is new

but, think about this:

if today was your last day on earth, what would you do?

now go do it.

i have no motivation and when i finally do have it nothing works and im frustrated. im also sick of this house and the way my parents are getting. sick of school even though ive had three reasonably okay days. i cant wait to just go out on my own and not have to answer to anybody but myself ( Read more... )