what am i doing? i don't have any clue where to go for college or what to do with my life anymore....definitely leave michigan, maybe leave the united states. nick rivet is the weirdest mix of amazing and frustrating that i've seen in a while. he's almost sympathetic then fatalistic then "suck it up" and i don't really understand at all. all i know ( Read more... )

three day weekends are really nice because i definitely don't like school right now...but without a car or anyone to talk to this has been a very long very lazy day full of channel flipping, brownies, and answering machines. ooh well what can you do ( Read more... )

i think i have a writing block...because i haven't been able to even think about writing in my real live pen and ink journal since before band camp. and i don't really feel so much like venting on here anymore because i'm too lazy and it just makes all those emotions come right back up to the surface. jon and i are back together which is really ( Read more... )

you know you're spending too much time with the german exchange student when you start thinking in a german accent. but its soooo cute and soooo funny! lol i love lars because his goofiness makes me forget how much i want it to be friday so that i can feel like everything is ok again. i love swearing in german and i love his stripes and the way he ( Read more... )

ok i'm feeling alright just now, so i figured why not time for a regular entry? i'm tired from being up late working last night and making twenty five whole dollars! but that's ok because we're playing holt tonight so i can go visit alex and see their show again. my word of the week/month is awkward because the girl who sits by me in chemistry says ( Read more... )

wow i am so flipping tired this morning i can hardly think straight...actually i can hardly think at all and an FST quiz is probably not the best idea right now. i need some caffeine to keep me going...until like 3 when i can come home, take a nap, then get up at 4:45 for work. because waiting on grumpy weird people sounds really good right now ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning from one of those dreams...you know the ones where you accept what you just saw and heard and felt as reality and sometimes its ok...even better than real life and sometimes its worse, and harder and just wrong. this was in between i guess. but i broke on the rules that used to govern my even my dreams and while i woke up and ( Read more... )

i hate just whining around in this journal...but what else is it for? homecoming game was cancelled last night until this morning and cal didnt win homecoming king so that was is pretty sad. brandon is official now and that makes things awkward and it's sad because i know that the next person i date will be a rebound, atleast at first...and that's ( Read more... )

another game day...but we're doing the whole show tonight kids, so it's gonna be a asthma attack waiting to happen for us guard girls. it's ok though because we can do it for real. holy crap, how am i still alive? i feel like fricken nasty mary kate olsen and i can't believe i was ever unhappy with the way i looked because now that i can't control ( Read more... )

school starts way to early. and i stay up way too late every night. so i am tired every day. but at the same time, i'm learning a lot about myself to tell you the truth. i never knew that my tolerance for not passing out was so high, or that i could actually go on literally nothing for like two weeks. not that this is a good quality but i've ( Read more... )