short of expectations.
again.
always.

i need christmas break to be here,
i'm getting so stressed over all of
the little things and it's driving me 
crazy.  college comp is killing me &
family drama is getting ridiculous.

haha worst case of senioritis.
story of my life, basically. <3

then i've been feeling super insecure
about relationships with nick and with
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two hour delay + late arrival = <3

this week should be busy again,
but not as bad as last week was.
hopefully i'll get to see nick, too.

i'm really hoping confirmation class
won't be cancelled again tonight.
:: crosses fingers ::        haha        =]

i need to finish christmas shopping.
like, definitely sooner than later .

i need your loving and your
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i don't get sick.
i don't get sick.
i don't get sick.
i don't get sick.
i don't get sick.
i don't get sick.

bleghh, i better not be getting sick!

this week has been sweet.
& tomorrow is friday =]
but i babysit all weekend.
but i make lots of moneyy.
but i miss my boyyy so yeah.

it's only us [ it's only now ],
a simple wish,
it's only tonight. <3

thanksgiving break = absolutely amazing.
tons of time to chill // saw three movies //
hung out with family // got to see nick a
good amount // wayy too much food .  <3

& this week is ridiculously crammed with
stuff to do ;; i'm all for it , minus the soccer
practice tomorrow that i'm nervous as hell
for.  otherwise, this week should own =]

and by the way ( Read more... )

so today was good ;; family, food & football <3
jenn, ei, cara & i went and saw this christmas.

when i got home, i had a huugee breakdown 
and ended up sobbing through a two hour 
conversation with the parentals. it was needed 
though, i've been bottling shit up for months now.

i have some new stuff to worry about after 
talking to them though, but i'll ( Read more... )

i love my friends =]

this weekend is good.
next week should be good.
maybe the holidays will
be okay, after all haha <3

i need to go shopping.
aka ;; more money.
aka ;; a second job.

do what you want,
and say what you will,
but i'm not going anywhere,
i'm here with you. <3

things are going to be okay.

i'm letting go of any stupid thoughts that
i had before & just moving on with my life.

this weekend should be good. hanging
out with the girls and cleaning for family
to get here for thanksgiving. not too bad.

i just wish i could see nick. i really miss
him & i don't think i'll see him until a little
bit next weekend, but ( Read more... )

so people compare life to a puzzle a lot of the time.
how everything that happens in life are the pieces
to the puzzle, and eventually everything falls into place,
creating the full picture that is the life you will lead.

the past couple days have helped me to grow back up
in my faith again, and i'm really glad about that.  on the
other hand, however, my ( Read more... )

everything is getting to me and i think i'm going to lose it.
::sigh:: i give up. the world wins. i'm down for the count.

school has been indescribably dull & i just want out.
stuff at home has been on & off, i've just been touchy.
my faith is almost gone & i don't know how to fix that.
i feel like i can't get myself in with the girls anymore
i've been ( Read more... )

.. so i have this boyfriend.
& he's kind of amazing. <3

mhmm, i adore him.

& despite my obnoxious insecurities and
doubts, he's sticking around with me.   :]

i couldn't be happier.

take my hand and never let me go,
promise me you'll never let go. <3