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sleep.
in a really weird mood.
i don't want to be awake.
but i can't stay asleep.
& it's really frustrating.
let's fast forward time.
to anywhere, anytime.
just so i'm not here & now.
that would be perfect.
i'm thinking too much.
about everyone // everything.
it's not good for me haha.
i need some answers.
...or just a better faith.
mine's been struggling.
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senioritis..
owns me.
i need to graduate.
high school's gayy
& i really don't care
about it anymore :]
blegh, i need either
a: a long weekend
or
b: a big vacation :]
supersoon.
no school monday ;
i think i love columbussss.
[ we're bff <3 ]
kayy, time to kill more time
& avoid productivity haha.
welcome to my world,
where everyone i ever need
always ends up
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seniors.
so tomorrow is homecoming & i'm actually superstoked about it.
i think our class has totally stepped up to the plate with the whole
school spirity thing and i really like it :] the pep rally should be a
blast tomorrow & then the game // dance should be awesome, too.
i dunno, i just like how things are playing out with school. and i won't
lie, seniorits ( Read more... ) -
creeeep.
school's back . it's been two weeks. time for vacationnn :]
haha tomorrow i get out at 10.45, then st. clare's for a little,
the gym, and over to nick's later, pending how he's feeling?
i feel so bad, i wish i could like .. take it for him? :[
hmm, i'm kind of fifth wheel`y at school this year, but hey,
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whatevaa.
.. in a really weird mood.
damn you, insecurity.
this inferiority complexy
thing really sucks bigtime.
so i was thinking ...
would the world really be
any different at all without
me? i mean honestly. i
seriously don't think it would.
hah that was emo.
ohwell :]
i should start hanging out with
people and making decisions
and being more thoughtful and
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insecurity.
why am i the most insecure person in america?
i feel like i can never compare to anyone or anything,
and that i'm not good enough for anything i have in
my life. i'm wicked tired of secondguessing everything
i do and say, but i feel like if i don't , something is
going to end up screwing me over and i'm going to
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cliche.
so i'm really tired. and disgustingly hot. still.
and my period shows up every 2 1/2 weeks.
i decided this summer that i hate my body :]
i'm just kind of a wreck in general. i'm doing
alright tonight, but between feeling unbelieve`
ably out of place with all of my friends, getting
into fights with my parents & being annoyingly
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mhmm.
post-soulfest life has been pretty good.
i've been keeping really busy, which has
been awesome, except for the fact that my
family doesn't like me not being home.
hanging out with people has been awesome
and i've actually been able to see nick, which
has made me happier than anything. :]
being almost sick has put a little damper on
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reminders.
note[s] to self:
- insecurity is a killer,
don't let it get to you .
- second guessing everything
doesn't get you anywhere .
- prayer makes everything
better, so stop trying to fix
everything by yourself .
- heart first, mind later.
things will get better, this i promise you,
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soulfest.
... my life is a beautiful thing.
i realized that this weekend.
i have an amazing, indescribable God.
i have ridiculous, crazy and loving friends.
i have overprotective and caring parents.
i have a faith that is on fire and spreading.
soulfest was so insanely different this year than i've ever experienced before.
my faith was really tested, and i feel ( Read more... )