i didn't call after i said i would. i didn't call the day after i said i would. i thought about calling last night, asking to please be picked up and hung out with, but was worried about his energy for work, and anger at betrayal ( Read more... )

so, i donated blood today, even tho i'm only 17!!! and i had a pizza sammich for lunch... some physics major got my number... =O josh was hotttt today, altho he'll say otherwise. i went to the bookstore and bought microsoft office.... and a planner. that is exactly what i need. but i have to wait until next year to use it. i cleaned out my ( Read more... )

i know i almost always complain... i'll try to balance it out wi th a few good things ( Read more... )

what a terrible, horrible, okay, awful day. at nine some kids at the u were raking leaves for the elderly... and i didn't go. plus, jake went to bed far too late to get up and understand what was going on at the diversity thing this morning.... so we canceled that idea too. i mean, i too, was tired, so i can't entirely blame him. my room's a ( Read more... )

it seems like all i can do is think of the future, and my place in it. if only there were prophesies about me... then i'd know i'm important, i'd know what to expect, who else it'd be with, or wouldn't be with.... but alas, life is not book. life is not fiction ( Read more... )

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of feeling this depressed ( Read more... )

the real story ( Read more... )

i wrote this in my last week at uni.... "My inner child lives in a steady state of dread, desire and guilt. She smiles though the sting, giving as everything is taken away. She is the child of laughter, although life is hard to enjoy. She is the angel of love; her bloodstained tresses dripping over her battered gaze, her shirt soaked with a ( Read more... )

his wife found us out. she has now taken him hostage. he's tied up and beated and sexed the hell out of. dazed, starving, barely hydrated, and extremely clausterphobic he sends out a silent plea for help. only one person hears it. she is nearly asleep, ready to dream of girls from highschools past, and kick-ass orchestras. there, a plea.... ( Read more... )