im so confused. i looked at anthony profile the other day and he says he is single. hmmmm...... is he confused like me? we basically are going out we just dont have the title. thats in my opinion anyway. maybe he thinks the same thing. i dont know i just want to be able to talk to him and let him know that i would like to make it official ( Read more... )

so steven will be leaving us tomorrow at 1:45pm to go to texas. im sad. he came to the alley to say his goodbyes. tonight was the last night i will be able to see him for six months. im so sad. i will miss oh so much ( Read more... )

im sick!!!!! its not a fun time for me. the doc thinks it could be strep or mono. they did a test for strep and it came out negative so the doc told me to wait a couple days while they send it out for more testing and they can tell me what is wrong with me. all i know is that my throat is so puffy i can barely swallow. im always sleeping. i ( Read more... )

like i said before jeff is not one of those superficial(if thats how you spell it) guys. we had a one on one conversation today. it was really nice. he was telling me that the only thing stopping him from dating me is that we have been friends for way too long and he didnt want to mess it up. totally understandable. hes like my bro and im like ( Read more... )

how do you know you are in love? i dont know if im in love. i think about anthony all the time. we dont see each other all the time anymore becuase he got an over night job and i miss him. he is the first guy i miss. when i was with nick and chris when i went down to nc( different times i didnt date two guys at once) i didnt miss them. but i ( Read more... )

i miss anthony. i havent talked to him in a couple days and i really miss him. you never know what good you have until it fades away. i realize how much i care about him by not being able to talk to him. hes good to me even though he is not perfect. hes good enough for me and thats all that matters right?

so my selfesteem just went down the drain. joe this asshole kid that bowls at the alley made a few comments about me. he didnt have the balls to say it in front of me but he did say it in front of steve adam shawn jay and lora. the comments were did she gain weight is she pregnant and if she was pregnant did the weight just disperse all over. ( Read more... )

oh i forgot HAPPY EASTER!!!!

i get really nervous around anthony's friends. i dont know i still dont know who is who. i dont know they are at the alley all the time and it bothers me. i feel like im being stalked or watched for anthony. i know he trusts me because he has told me but it just seems weird. whenever im working they are there and it feels like they are ( Read more... )

I was just watching the real world. it was the last show and i was just thinking waht would happen. if i had to leave or if someone had to leave me i know i would be really really sad ( Read more... )