im tired but i can't fall asleep. too much going on in my mind. im wondering how its going to be between anthony and i when i come back from camp. will he wait for me? will he find someone new? if it does last or make it through is he the one? hmmmmm..... i don't know what to think. but i do know i need to go to bed ( Read more... )

im getting sick again. my throat feels funny. it feels wierd to swallow. i dont want to be sick again. if im going to get sick again then that will be the thrid time in about a month and a half. i dont think that that is a healthy thing. what should i do? should i go to the doc and see what i can do for this. i dont want to be sick anymore ( Read more... )

so it was miscommunication. he said that he thought he told me just to come over but the thing is is that i didnt hear that part. oops. so he thought that i blew him off and he thought i blew him off. oh well. but i did get to see him today just for a little while. he asked me to go over tomorrow but im not doing anything. no sex. cuz that was ( Read more... )

i like him . and its really hard not being able to see him. he tells me that we'll hang out today, he'll call me when he gets up and we will spend some time together before he goes to work. he goes to work at 4 and he hasn't called me. it is 3:19 on my clock and i haven't been able to get a hold of him ( Read more... )

i got a call today. jumping in happiness. his car died today. oops. so hes hoping it gets fixed in a couple days cuz he has to work. but he thought i was mad at him. most of the time he thinks im mad at him i dont getit. but anyways we are going to see each other on wednesday. all day until he has to work. he said we could watch a movie. ( Read more... )

ok so ya know how anothony said he was going to call me everyday? well he hasnt called everyday but he has called everynow and then. it is still sometimes makes me sad when i dont get a call but it is very nice to be surprised by them. i think thats what i like. the surprise of them. im glad we have oue separate lives and then what we have ( Read more... )

so i finally got a hold of him for enough time to tell him how i feel. a big sigh of relief for me. i told him that im scared that he doesnt like me cuz we dont talk a lot. and he apologized because he didnt know that it bothered me so much. he told me from now on hell call me everyday cuz he says he has time to call me. i told him that he ( Read more... )

i guess im not good enough for a relationship. im only good for pleasure. i havent found the one guy that wants to be with me for me that i want to be with. i always seem to go for the guys that only want one thing. he still hasnt called me and im tired of waiting. so i don't want to give him up but if it is going to make me less crazy then i ( Read more... )

I dont know how much of this i can take. i havent talked to anthony since last sunday. i called him this friday and yesturday and he hasnt called me back. i dont know if he is sick of me or if he is just busy. i have a feeling this relationship isnt going to last very much longer. im going away for the summer and if he is going to call me back ( Read more... )

why do i have this ugly feeling in my head. it just popped in there and i don't know why. the last time i talked to anthony was sunday. it was the perfect night but i havent talked since then. im thinking that he is only in it for sex. but then again i think that he isnt. he did upset when i changed my profile but i dont know. he's not ( Read more... )