When I love, I love with my whole heart. And in some way, I think that has overwhelmingly become my true hamartia. And it is slowly but surely leading to the downfall of my character. It's an every-waking-moment, "pride-swallowing seige that I will never fully tell you about" and it is obliterating my heart ( Read more... )

Just fuck it, guys. Fuck.It.All.

Where are you, God? I dont think that I have ever been this lost in my life and I think that a part of my problem is that you are not here... Or I am not listening... And maybe you are not here BECAUSE I am not listening... I wish I knew how. But I dont. And every day is harder than the last, and every day I feel as if I cannot breathe. It's like, ( Read more... )

This morning, I woke up with the only dream that could be real to me, as of late... I want to be a writer. I want to write, I want to inspire people. I want people to read those words that were written in all heart and experience and feel it... inspiration, hope, life, love, everything that matters... That is the only thing that I want [to do with ( Read more... )

I'm taking a break from LJ for a while. Because I am tired of writing depressing shit. But right now, that is all that I kno how to write, because that is all that my heart is and can manage. So. See you around..

Lets think about this...

Best Friends

~Brandon__I drove him away. We are no longer a part of eachother's lives.
~Britt__She is gone. In more ways than one. And I miss how our friendship used to be, but it will never be the same.
~Meagan__She is moving. Far away. I'm not going with her. And that's that.

CollegeI'm dropping out. I cant do this ( Read more... )

A good friend of mine just wrote something that made me cry, she wrote of a memory that used to be the six of us, two years ago in the corner of a library... She wrote of how she found hope and the bond that we shared and how we have all gone our own ways... None have been good for us, individually. And all has torn us apart--who we were together. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel as if I'm anti-social. I'm one of those people who would rather keep my headphones on and vibe to music than talk to the strangers in a classroom. I always sit in the desk in the far right back corner of the room, where I can see everyone, but I talk to no one. Why is that? Am I just one of those people who have an innate need to ( Read more... )

In short: I bought my first Jack Johnson Cd tonight.

I love.

I was looking through some of my old writing and I came across this. It was written two years ago. I remember the day I wrote it, what I felt, how sad I felt... Because I took a hard look at the people around me, some of my closest friends, and this is what I saw. This is what they were going through, what they were up against. I just found it a ( Read more... )