a day, with tim. was fun indeed. the game he talks about has alot of potential. hes an intense kid i must say it was tricky getting words in let alone paragraphs. i think i dropped a bomb on him though, he got a little quite after that. ive been thinking about this camel story alot latley, and for those who i have told this story too dont read the ( Read more... )

So after a rushing psycho cleaning morning I made it to the bus, it a bad idea to have a potluck right before you have to go on a bus ride, the ride was odd, I waited in the line for a looong time talking to this guy that works at video hits plus and was going to kalkaska to spend Christmas with his family, blah blah although he was pretty fun to ( Read more... )

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i feel this anger, its bored anger, not passionate just a bad disposition, i need new friends, i have some awesome ones but i need new ones so i can have a mix, i need the mix i had in boyne, fucking shit. it was never this hard to find friends in boyne. i guess if i was around people it would be possible but when i meet people at randome parties i ( Read more... )

so the limits of life are indespensable, yet unreachable. if you try hard enough you will find everything is in a circle, yet its a straight line, i guess its kind of how everything works, we are all one big spinning movement forward, yet backwards all the same. am gonna stay up all night tonight and then all day tomarrow, for i dont need sleep, it ( Read more... )

fuck the pussy boy that works at fourth coast, i dont know his name, although ive heard its dana. he in a very rude mannor told garth, ben, alex and i to leave if we wernt gonna buy anything. we had just sat down at a table, keep in mind there was a group of people playing cards, a girl (good looking) reading a book at the bar, and 2 guys talking ( Read more... )

fuck, its cold. quite. my birthday was pretty good. mary came down! fun fun. her friend mike was cool. i just recently watched a movie with joseph campbell!! twas quite incredible! an odd coincedence being the hermann hesse book i just finished talked about eternal laugher, and joseph campbell also. very odd indeed. im now reading a henry miller ( Read more... )

i would fancy a nice ball, a masquerade, where there is huge dancing rooms, filled to the brim, fox trots, and waltz, alchohol and nefarious fun! we shall be whirling in our gaiety. our lives will take on new meaning! our souls will be let loose to fly to absolute heights! in our rapture we shall reach new heights of debauchery, until we feel ( Read more... )

my mind feels like a blank nothingness, i am spiriling into or out of oblivion, its that pain, that sharp pain in my lower back, its taking over my soul, i feel like its slowly spreading and my heart will eventually be eaten, im being poisened i fear, its this odd pang of paranoia, fantisy, and facts, i swear i got this from pulling soil, lots of ( Read more... )

sit up straight. live. i was working today, doing what i normally do, feeding plants, soil and hangers to people, also putting plants on carts, and i realized. i realized i was not cut out for this type of work, when it comes to being able to be in the mundane every moment, i am lost.. i end up getting bored so i try to entertain myself with ( Read more... )