So, one of my longest silences yet.
Mental health arena, yet again. Antidepressants, and even a therapist this time!
And a psychatrist?? maybe. It seems inevidable. Time will tell
Time is no friend
for time will bring his end.

I want to scream. I am already screaming on the inside. People can't hear the screams within me. I just want someone to understand. I want someone to care. I want someone to hug me and tell me its going to be alright. I want to know it gets better. I don't want to live like I'm feeling now. I really should sleep. Then I'll start it all over ( Read more... )

I'm lying on my bedroom floor just contemplating all of the things I need to be doing. I attempt to clean my room from time to time, I really do. But I always get distracted. I just ran across an old photo album. It is full of pictures directly prior to and right after the birth of my niece. I love my sister so much. I really do. But looking at ( Read more... )

Apathy? Is this apathy? For some reason I always imagined apathy as being less painful ( Read more... )

Sitting here just thinking. Recently someone told me that I think to much. Could this be true? It very well could be. Perhaps it is my exsessive thinking that brings on many of my own troubles? However I feel almost as if I would be incapable of thinking less. I feel as if it is a part of who I am. I analize things, I am a very analytical person( ( Read more... )

Has it really been so long since I have written in my journal? I intend to pour my heart out so often, ah but I get side tracked ( Read more... )

Christmas eve is upon me again. I'm sitting in the den as the crowd dwindles from the living room. A football game is on t.v. believe it or not. Tulsa vs. Hawaii. Ho hum is all I can say ( Read more... )

So dearest journal, I haven't poured my heart out to you yet.
I think I'm being ripped apart....slowly, time rips me...

Life is ever changing, but it seems that some of the struggles therein are constant ( Read more... )

I feel like crap. I hate this right now. Do I bring my torment on myself? I purely abhor myself at times. But what can I do?