fuck me. i suck at life. that's how i feel right now, that's how i have been feeling lately. &lately means like.. the last year of my life. ok who am i kidding, make that the last fucking 3 years of my life.. at least. at fucking LEAST ( Read more... )

i'm not suppose to care.

...so why does it hurt so bad?

So many beginnings pop up in my head ( Read more... )

At least it's nice outside.
God knows if it was raining, I'd be losing my fucking mind right now.
Fuckin' A, who am I kidding, I am so losing my mind right now ( Read more... )

Wow, Chrispy hates me ( Read more... )

So I've completely lost my mind lately ( Read more... )

Wow, so I used to be incredibly in-tune with my emotions.. At least that's the impression I get when I read those old entries and think about how I feel now. I suppose I should say incredibly more-so then rather than now. I'm empty these days. I can't remember the last time I had real feelings that I didn't bury. I've got some issues. Reading those ( Read more... )

shit is FUCKED right now.
seriously FUUUCKED.

&i'm certainly not helping the situation any.

there are things i want.
things that i don't see happening,
simply because of the people around me.

i miss the way things used to be.
i really fucking do.