I'm imploding. How many times this trip am I going to be a train that runs into a wall at full speed. When do I get to stop have the feelings that, "I can't do this anymore."
Shit is falling down. I love this country but I need to get out of here.

I have the worst luck with technology. I woke up with my computer in a strange position, and thanks to that the monitor will not turn on. I've discovered that the computer itself indeed does work, so I'm at least excited that I didn't lose everything else, it's just for some reason the screen is unresponsive. Japan does have Apple stores, except ( Read more... )

My brain is so tired. Mostly because of memorizing things. I don't mind vocab, kanji, and grammar. It's just the monotonous onslaught of dialogue memorization. My brain forgets them as soon as I start memorizing the next one. I'm so jealous of this kid in my class who has a photographic memory. He memorizes stuff so easily and can quickly recall it ( Read more... )

So many incredible things have happened here. The experiences, the people, the overall empowering feeling that is slowly entering and becoming a part of me. I've been writing things down on pieces of paper, observations, and the things I've been doing. All with the intention of writing them on here. So I don't forget the impressions and feelings I ( Read more... )

I really want to update about what a wonderful weekend I had. How many wonderful experiences were had, and all the thoughts and impressions that crossed my mind. Except I can't, because I keep thinking about how much I want to leave this place. Not Japan, but Hikone, and this stupid institute. I knew I didn't want to come here originally, but did ( Read more... )

I haven't left my room at all today. I just didn't want to. I needed a break, and a slow down from the constant movement around here. My roommate left for his home stay and now I'm alone in 128 again. I really just want to walk down by the water right now. There's a key lock to get back into the building that I don't know the number to. I only got ( Read more... )

I did so much shit today, I'm too tired to even write it all out. tons of things I want to write about Japan, about comparisons of the US and Japan on many different things, my first day getting lectured by Japanese doctors and nurses, meeting Japanese students and getting to converse and hang out with them ( Read more... )

I don't remember what I said in my last entry, I think it was mostly that I just arrived here and the things going along with that business. I forgot to mention that when I left the grocery store, a guy ran out and gave me a bag that I had left. Super nice, I was so far away by that point, I can't believe he ran after the only foreigner in the ( Read more... )

I really need to open up a blog spot and start taking photos. It'd make my story much more visual and interesting (obviously). It's hard when people describe their lives in a foreign land. Like yeah ok you were on a road and a bird shat on you, but what does the road look like? what kind of birds are there? (this happened to me in China, I got shit ( Read more... )

I landed in Tokyo at 6 something pm yesterday Asia time zone. What does that even mean? One more connecting flight to Osaka. I'm proud of myself that I can navigate this country on my own. I didn't get lost on the train once, and had an obnoxious amount of baggage. I opted not to overnight ship one of the bags because the train ticket was already ( Read more... )