I must have some kind of accelerated bone aging or something. My feet and back are killing me. I'm losing my touch. Dancing for hours on end never use to hurt so bad until the morning after. DEMF was a lot of fun. I'm glad I got to go to something fun and crazy before I leave. I have so much cleaning and packing ahead of me. Boo. I have a lot of ( Read more... )

My poor father is coughing furiously as he's trying to sleep because of his acid reflux ( Read more... )

I just had the most intensive conversation of the human spirit that I've had in a long time. It's what I've been craving. I at least got a few perspectives I'm glad I didn't see before, and am glad that even conversing with someone who has this higher mind set, that I still have the possibility to teach a few things on how to be more skeptical and ( Read more... )

Why? Why does this happen to me? I'm not breathing as it is. Who or what did I piss off to make this keep happening to me? I feel like I'm being shot by a million arrows in every direction. Each one seems to be tipped with proving that I am some kind of monster. I am nothing but a facade, a pretty fucking face. Everyone seems to get that vibe that ( Read more... )

There's a thunderstorm passing through. It's almost 4. It must be summertime, because insomnia is setting in. Although I've had to keep waking up early the past few days. Everything is so taxing at the moment. I feel like every time I wake up I'm costing someone money. I'm at odds with a lot of things, and now it's setting in that I'm leaving again ( Read more... )

Lately I've gotten this yearning to go out west. Not quite California, but Colorado and Wyoming. I want to do a bunch of things outdoors and live in a little place on a mountain side for a little while. I guess my need for connection with the internet could be fulfilled with a satellite or internet card. I could lay outside and breathe air that ( Read more... )

What the hell is going on? I feel like my life just went through a recession. As if I went through some drastic trial to continue onward. Suddenly I'm being cast into this whole new world with all new experiences coming at me left and right ( Read more... )

I keep getting weird fucking electronic messages and symbols. I want to know what they're telling me. I wish the universe would stop being so gray and cryptic on this shit. Black and white, I'm leaving lots of things are going to happen before then. Why can't it all just be that easy. What is it...

I think these last two weeks have to be some kind of joke the universe is trying to play on me. I feel like chaos, I have no friction in my life. Things are simply hurdling through space until they hit something else and change course. The world is a giant pinball machine, the goal is to keep me away from the black hole that will consume me for not ( Read more... )

I feel so cyclical. Who am I ( Read more... )