i think alot. i've realized im a more sensitive person than i gave myself credit for. or well, for what alot of people give me credit for. i just try to keep it to myself mostly. mostly because the people that are the closest to me can affect me more than the day to day people i could give a shit less about. but that is probably normal. someone i ( Read more... )

this past week has been one big ball of stress, the weekend hasnt been much better and this coming week is going to probably keep at the heels of the past one. working 40 hours in 3 days then trying to get out to virginia, and all that stuff. i haven't had a second to just relax. im really all over the place, i've been thinking too much and been ( Read more... )

alot is getting to me and i'm ready to get the hell out of virginia. its nice for like a day but im bored and tired.

i've been fighting life on my knees

well im leaving for virginia, hopefully i fly safe. i dont like flying but something about strapping on my headphones and zoning out for a few hours is really appealing. i need to reflect ( Read more... )

i wish i had some place i could go and just feel like home is there. i feel like i don't have anywhere to go when i am sad and just want to sit in the corner of a room when i feel like the world is against me or just relax and listen to music and be happy or something. i used to have my room but home isn't home anymore and im just wandering around ( Read more... )

heeeyy it's been like a week since i posted last ( Read more... )

well i got my badge today so im a full fledged EMT. weird ( Read more... )

well today was my first day as an EMT. I didn't really know what to expect buutt everyone was really nice and funny. All the guys in my class get along pretty well, everyone is really rad and gets along well with eachother. I was worried because sometimes there are alot of douchebags but so far none seem to be in my hiring class. We just sat in the ( Read more... )

so today is the last day of my life as i have known it. no, i'm not dying or anything like that. but tomorrow i start my life as a health care professional in the emergency medical service. and it is completely foreign to me to feel this way. i never thought id feel what it would be like to leave a dead end job and actually be excited but i do. i'm ( Read more... )

so sick of being tired, and oh so tired of being sick ( Read more... )