my head hurts and my stomach hurts as well. too much wine maybe. or alcohol in general. who knows. my whole body hurts, i hate the sun and more importantly i hate sunburns. fuck ( Read more... )

sometimes i get really frustrated and depressed with life ( Read more... )

i think one of the hardest lessons to learn in life is all in all, people don't change unless they want to. you can't make up someone's mind, they have to do it themselves.

hmmm. life confuses me.

alot.

im thoroughly ticked at the moment. i hate douche bags. ugh.

in other news, my fire teachers are awesome and letting me basically not worry about my class work until after i take national registry so i can study for it. how awesome. that is good news. what is crappy news is i close tomorrow night. god damn it.

back to studying. adios.

it's funny when i run into people i went to highschool and middle school and even elementary school with. i love how seeing everyone's life is playing out. ive run into alot of people i've known since i was in 3rd grade and they are getting married or are already married and having kids or have one or more. it blows my mind because i still feel ( Read more... )

everything is almost too much to handle right now. i hate feeling so alone sometimes. i hate that i'm always fighting for something. i wish that something, just something that i work hard for would work. i wish i didn't have to watch people that i love die. i wish i could find that sense of home i had when i was little. i just wish things weren't ( Read more... )

sometimes, when i'm by myself and i sit down i just try to get a grip on everything and try to keep my composure. i'm looking at a picture that my mom took when i was little of my grandpa hugging me on the back lawn of their house and my grandma is standing right next to me. i'm smiling so big ( Read more... )

i have so many questions about things and alot of them i think will always be unanswered, left to be thought over and over about in my mind. i'm trying to fathom why such bad things happen to such innocent and good people. especially children. i don't understand why such bad things can happen to someone that in no way could ever deserve it. but ( Read more... )

i think i should have been like a sex therapist or something because it really fascinates me to no end. i just read like 3 or 4 articles online about it. maybe because i'm a guy has something to do with it but its not like the whole "i just wanna do it" sort of thing that most guys have. i like reading the emotional and physical mechanics and ( Read more... )

I know what lies beneath, I've seen the flash of teeth.
Conspiring with the reef to sink our ship.
The wind's a cheating wife, her tongue a thirsty knife.
And she could take your life with one good kiss.

Can you see the sky turn red?
As morning's light breaks over me,
Know tonight we'll make our bed
at the bottom of the sea