I remember forgiving you for high school, for after it, for never really seeing what was in front of you. I remember how simple forgiving you felt and how easy it was to fall for you again. I remember Harrison and creepy love letters and sexy love letters and regular love letters and Whistler and conversations to die for and counting crows and ( Read more... )

3 years ago today...and maybe we are all letting go a little. because tommorrow we are just having dinner and thats that...no flowers at bench, no family flying in. But I know I'll end up running the fifteen kilometers to that stupid stable, that my mom will pull out all those stuffed animal angels and that my uncle will go to that bench without us ( Read more... )

I want to write something nice for you ..but it wouldn't really be for you...because you're gone ...so really its for me...because I'm still here and my life is without another friend that I love intensly now. I'm looking at the end of my bed and thinking you should be there. I hate myself for all the little habits that didn't disappear as ( Read more... )

I went to mexico ...it was fun ...different...the plane was sad especially the way back ...it was like this nice escape from maple ridge and everything thats gone wrong and I didn't bring my danielle necklace because I never would have forgiven myself for losing it if I did...but it was kind of nice not to wear it for once...like a big emotional ( Read more... )

chuck palahniuk has a new novel called snuff coming out this month ...its all about porn. Well knowing him thats not all that it's about..it's probably as much about porn as fight club is about soap but we'll see ....he has all these weird videos up on his site advertising the novel...well advertising pornos that one of the character's has acted in ( Read more... )

a dig at you
something to make you hurt or just something that makes you think
a successful, justified yet hurtful message, in which I'm right and you're wrong
through which you finally regret.
revenge. Not violent and rage filled but subtle and deserved.

so why her. thats what alot of people have been saying ...and then they've been following it with why not . why not her. why anyone. and that seems to relax them and help them deal with it for a while , a little less hysterical than why her, why not her ( Read more... )

so this year is almost over..it'll be 2008...I don't know how I feel about that really...my uncle hasn't switched his calander off of October ..so I'm not sure hes ready for a new year either....what would have been danielle's 13th birthday is coming up ..it'll be on a wednesday this year which is the same day of the week that she died on....I know ( Read more... )

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i should have kept this deleted because now i write in it too much ...I just mixed beer and chocolate soy milk and now i'm sure i'll throw up later its okay tonight was fun ...I always get drawn to coming back home and when someone offers to take me I always do ...I don't like staying at other peoples houses anymore at all ...I used to want to all ( Read more... )