The other night, I had a dream I was a house party wandering through the labyrinth of this house. I was first in the kitchen looking for food and then an acquaintance whom I am not very fond of was picking me up over his shoulder and spinning around, with the lights off, and I was getting very upset. Then I found myself sitting on a window ledge, ( Read more... )

"Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand ( Read more... )

I feel full of hatred and bitterness,
pessimism, despair and anguish.
I would like to cut myself open and 
let all of the negativity bleed out of me.
Cleansing.

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Dog days are over

Fuck, dig myself a hole and hide in it.

Someone shake me.
I don't need uplifting, I need a smack down.

I want to have an apartment of cats, an absurd amount of 'em, 
and I want to be left alone until I die. I don't want a single soul to find me,
and I want the cats to eat my decaying body.

Thats how I feel, today.


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One down, three to go. Good bye yellow walls and all of the madness you have brought upon me. SEE YOU IN HELL.

Motherfucking cocksucker motherfucking shit fucker what am I doing? What am I doing? I don't know what I'm doing. I'm doing the best that I can. I know that's all I can ask of myself. Is that good enough? Is my work doing any good? Is anybody paying attention? Is it hopeless to try and change things? The African guy is a sign, right? Because if he ( Read more... )