fucking sad

no, actually beyond sad

just dont ask me why

only hope i can make it to practice tomorrow morning considering our regatta is saturday

didnt make it today

why?

just beyond flipping sad and unable to do squat

cue sob story music

8 CORA, St. Catharines CORA - St. Catharines 15-16 St. Catharines, Henley Course St. Catharines Invitational 22-23 Welland ROWONTARIO Championships

My 5yr old cousin:

"Is Aunt Joyce right? If I stay in too long will it really freeze off?"

poor fella thought he'd lose his 'weenie' if he stayed in the pool too long

hehehehe

Yet again another one of my strange thinkings

As I sit here reading the uncut version of The Stand I recall how before I was out of grade 4 I was sneaking in Stephen King novels and was buying them in front of the parents by grade 5.

hmm, perhaps this is how I became such a twisted being

muhahahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

In from work. 3 shifts left ( Read more... )

fuck!
got my one week notice today
lost my job
company is cutting back drastically
got the axe
disappointed and blaming myself
what could i have done differently?
fuck

I have to get to sleep somehow. I am getting up in 5 hrs

I am in great pain and it sucks ( Read more... )

Wanting to throttle some people on their knowledge and assumptions of EDs. But as I have said I am in recovery from one and am trying to drop my weight a little just for comfort and energy sake. As the competitive rowing season has started I am out on the water every morning for a couple hours training away. I return to university in the fall and ( Read more... )

awake now for 48hrs
caffeine consumed at 1.2g
rate of caffeine intake at 0.025g/hr
bloody hell
somebody: how the heck am I still awake?!?!
and if I dont sleep tonite I will be going for a caffeine drip since I gotta work tomorrow (ie I need to think tomorrow)

it is nearing 7pm.
In 12hrs I will be coming off the water having started the summer season
Fuckity fuck!
I wanna go to bed NOW!
5am comes too soon
sorry make that 4am. Forgot I have to drag my lazy arse outta bed
sniff

but damn happy to be geting back on the water
yippee!!!