I wonder what would happen if I just let everything go. If I were to just sit down and write and clear my head without any worry or fear of repercussions ( Read more... )

I cracked the ice Friday night, and now I'm still not sure whether I can move. I could either fall through and drown, or get the hell off the ice.

I'm not sure which I would, should, could do. We'll see soon. I don't think it will take long for it to fully break whether I'm there or not.

It's almost time to leave work. I'm excited.

Days are flowing from one into the next, and it seems like it's all the same. Running on the same loop. I think I'm okay with that for the time being ( Read more... )

It feels as though I've been here forever, yet I'm still surprised to find it 5.20. I have no idea where my day went, or what I've been doing. Only that I've been going through the daily mood cycle. Fabulous for part of the day, and then there's always the part of the day where I want to go hide out in the bathroom. Why do I keep getting into this ( Read more... )

Hmmm, usual cycle. Is it bad that there is a usual cycle ( Read more... )

I need to evaluate a lot of things.

I also need to do something about these headaches. It's getting kind of ridiculous.

Nothing like a spinal tap to tell you to get your life straightened out. Drugs are going to be kept to a minimum, if even there at all. Weekends are going to be spent in town more. Friday night is Club Zero, but I think I'll be home for the next couple ( Read more... )

Falling apart? Not quite.

Feeling better? Almost.

Dealing with everything? Yes.

Maybe I'm over-reacting. Over thinking. Over analyzing. Jumping to conclusions. It's just what I do and I'm usually wrong.

For once I hope to god I am.

Good things coming up soon. Very good things indeed.

I hate being dependent on other people. Possibly the only people that I don't mind being dependent on is my parents, and that's because it's an unspoken agreement, not because I have to ask for much. And that's what kind of freaks me out about not being able to drive. I know that I'll turn into some sort of recluse who just sits in her room and ( Read more... )

I'm in such a good mood. I'm not ravenously hungry, I've actually eaten today, and I haven't smoked since Monday morning. I have a little bit of a headache and my car is still fucked up, but I'm cool with that. Orders have been slow this morning, but it hasn't been dull. It's not like I've just been dicking around on the internet for two hours. ( Read more... )