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Again.
Duped again. By a guy, by my feelings, by my sex drive. When am I ever going to learn that it isn't healthy to go back to an old sex partner?
How many days until I get over this? Not long, I'm sure. How many days will I beat myself up over stumbling over my self-respect?
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Do I really have to stay like this until Wednesday?
I've had a cough for a month now. So, I haven't taken methotrexate for a month now. And I popped a rib coughing. Holy shit, I'm in a lot of pain. This is seriously what I felt like 4 years ago before I got diagnosed? How in the fuck did I live day-to-day? I can't even get comfortable in bed. I can't run. I can't do anything.
Fuck you, lupus. And ( Read more... ) -
No, She is Hopeful
I miss hoping that a guy has interest in me. I do miss being held by a guy. I miss being loved by a guy. I definitely miss sex.
But, do I miss it enough to jeopardize the progress that I've made? Do I miss that enough to distract my mind from taking care of myself and shooting for what I actually want and need?
It is hard being rejected. I have heard ( Read more... ) -
Dinner... and a date?
When I grabbed dinner tonight, I wasn't expecting to have drinks with someone new. But, I was asked out by the bartender, and he seemed nice enough, so off I went.
He seems like a pretty cool guy, but not the one. Definitely genuine and open... wow, he told me his life story, but rarely did he ask for mine. This is the third pseudo-date that I've ( Read more... ) -
Leap List #1 - Before I Leap into an Exclusive Relationship
1. Read Eat, Pray, Love
2. Begin learning French
3. Take a spontaneous trip by plane solo
4. Start a conversation with someone who I think is out of my league
5. Regularly like and wear all of the clothing in my closet
6. Redesign and decorate my room
7. Take a trip with a girlfriend
8. Go visit some friends (Marissa, Adrienne)
9. Feel solace and home ( Read more... ) -
Happy Valentine's Day!
This is my first one officially single. No guys lined up at all. It feels freeing. No anxiety about what I'm going to get. What I'm going to get someone. About where we're going to go and what we'll do.
I could grab hold of someone and not spend it alone, but honey, my gift to you is not wasting time on someone I know isn't the right fit. It's so ( Read more... ) -
Mothereff.
I told Jeff that I want to start back up. He told me that there's someone else... they haven't start yet, and he wants to take time to figure out which gal he'd like to pursue ( Read more... ) -
Goodbye Old Flames!
Well, officially, I am alone now. No in-betweens, half-shoe-ins, or even interest. Just me. Not as scary as I thought. And not terribly lonely either ( Read more... ) -
Holidays
What do single people with shitty families do all day over the holidays? Everything is closed, and you could spend it with friends, but their family celebrations are awkward because, well, you aren't really part of their family ( Read more... )