leah calls me from work tonight and tells me that she was looking through a pile of papers for something, and as she was looking for it, she found a letter that I wrote on the back of one of my spelling tests to mom - October, 1998
it reads, 
           Dear Mom, 
                  If you see this letter then you should read it.  Mom I love you but ( Read more... )

my ( Read more... )

i can't let myself, 
'we' can't be
it's over before it starts.
   im sorry.
i've done it once again.
   something that i CAN'T have, is something that i try NOT to want.

you are so beautiful.

if i could have it my way, you know how i would have things.
sometimes i just stand back and watch...
- it breaks my heart.
little pieces of my love scattered upon different people.
you hold something.
it always seems that i end up right where i start, and it never leaves us together.
i want something sooooo badly, but i cant have it.

you held me in your ( Read more... )

being at church tonight, being in service, singing during worship, all made me realize how much i miss youth.  yeah i know it sounds stupid, but i really really do.  i miss that solid group of people, that strong group of friends.  i miss that pastor that went beyond what was expected.  that pastor who was more than a pastor, and more like my ( Read more... )

i dunno what it is, or why it is, but this past month i really feel like im back where i was months ago. that stage of time where everyone was so mixed up in themselves and others, and drama that wasn't needed, hurt, lies, complications, distance, betrayal, all lead from one thing to another ( Read more... )

 another year ahead, another year gone by.

and i think of the past year... new years brings new years resolutions. resolutions that we tell ourselves we are going to try for for the upcoming year. resolutions filled with broken promises that only last so long.

new years has come, its another year.
i think back to this past year, so much has happened ( Read more... )

& so this was christmas ( Read more... )

I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU

*thinking of you and what you've done is making me sick to my stomach.
i cant even look at you.

thanks for the great christmas!!!
f*** you.

THERE IS NOBODY LIKE MY WORK FAMILY!!!!!! =D
i love them to DEATH. 
NOBODY make me happy, laugh and smile like they do!!
licks christmas party tonight was JOKES!
I WON EMPLOYEE of the year!
i get a plaque, $100 gift certificate to h&m, and then im the next in line to be manager =D
brent got up and said really nice stuff about me, and then announced that ( Read more... )