I just want to be a normal college student... I want to go and live on campus and be part of stuff and go to events... I just want to get away.

I had a sudden rush of hating my life yesterday, and it still hasn't gone away. I talked to a few people and they understood where I was coming from, obviously, they are my friends and were even more ( Read more... )

 I can only hope you will continue to hold onto our friendship as you have done in the past... Please don't let me down, because I need your friendship from you more than anything else, as I always have. I hope you realize that and still keep in touch like before. Miss ya. Yea, as pathetic as it sounds, I already do.

Its been an interesting week...should have, shouldnt have...doesnt matter, ive done what ive done and i cant go back on it. Why do people think they understand...guess what, no one can see exactly whats in my head unless I tell them. I just really wish people wouldn't assume what was going on with me before they try to understand, maybe then they ( Read more... )

I feel like I am about to explode... I have so much pent up feelings that I really do think that I am going to have a break down. And I think all of those emotions were just multiplied greatly in this past day. Despite knowing this, I still can't let myself cry; I can't let myself talk about it. I think that there is really only one person that I ( Read more... )

I want to cry SO BAD right now.... But I won't let myself. I refuse to be weak. I refuse to let the rush of emotions take me over like they used to. I am NOT doing this. I am not. Thus the reason I am writing this right now. It helps to repress it.

I just keep telling myself to take deep breaths.... I don't need to talk about everything. I can get over things on my own. I can. I'm just tired of not trusting people. I'm just aggrivated.

I was thinking today, and this is what I came up with.

You seem to have considered dating pretty much all of your best friends before... Why hasn't this thought crossed your mind with me? Seriously and honestly.. I'm not wondering this because I still want to go out with you. I don't want to anymore. I can safely say that I no longer love you in ( Read more... )

You have never cared or respected my opinion. WHY, in the world, would I think that you would now? 

 My mom really needs to let go, just a little. And make up her mind what she wants. Because it get slightly irritating sometimes.

 So... Sometimes, I hate myself. I don't know what to do.

And I wonder what people think of me more so now than ever... Even if I don't appear too. Why am I a horrible person for not doing "rebellious" things..? I hate feeling like I do right now...