I had a really good time today. Yea, I got a bit sun-burned, but it was all fun. Graduation was sad in its way, of coarse. But the parties, all 3 of them, were so much fun. I loved it. Everyone at these parties made me so happy, lol, well, for the most part. And with how things have been lately, I think I needed it. I really needed a day away from ( Read more... )

So, I am overwhelmed with different feelings on different subjects. So many emotions. Same as always... It gets hard to put on an act and although I think my understanding of how things are is getting better, I feel like my ability to hold in my feelings has started to diminish. I miss when I could hold in everything and no one knew anything about ( Read more... )

Okay, so I have been thinking about the best way to put this into words. You wanted to know the reason I feel the way I feel, this is basically it. Last summer, I saw you, maybe three or four times.. My last summer before college. And you know the circumstances of why that would be very tough for me. Do you not care what I went through then? Do you ( Read more... )

So... My heart really hurts right now.. Emotionally.. and I really want it to stop. I don't understand why it hurts this much. Ugh!!

If I keep telling myself that... than maybe it will be? Perhaps one day, that will work. All day, I have been trying to act like nothing was bothering me and that I didn't care. I actually believe that for those precious few hours, I had even convinced myself of it too. Not a soul that saw me today suspected anything.. Not even my mom, who always ( Read more... )

If the world only knew what I was really going through inside.. If anyone only knew how much I absorb. It's intense sometimes. No, I have nowhere near the roughest or hardest life, but each person has there own problems and obstacles that is difficult for them. And I acknowledge it, so don't accuse me of complaining. Sometimes it is very hard to ( Read more... )

I have never felt so strongly about leaving than I do now. I am just getting in your way. You have others that you relate to far more than me, that you have far more fun with.. It has hit me that I am holding on to something that is fading away and fast. Why am I so reluctant to let it go? Its hard to explain and not really something I feel like ( Read more... )

The moon looks so pretty tonight.. The stars do too actually.. One look, for me, made me forget about hurt, if only for a minute... if only for a minute. It is times like that when I know I chose the right thing to do in life, I think, lol....

Will you miss me when I'm gone ( Read more... )

Okay, so, I just spent an hour writing down everything on my mind. Every single emotion that I was feeling right now and it deleted it all on me. So, without saying, I am very super pissed write now because it was a very long entry and I need to write it and post it now so that I can say what I need to say since the person I really need to talk to ( Read more... )