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~Jere!!~

This is it, honestly. This will be my last post in this jounal. If your an avid reader, sorry all futher publications will be locked. Its all over, and I lost...so I'm going to commence moving on now. This road to recovery is going to be fucken long. So if you want to know about my life...try a telephone. Good day.

"I love you more then i've ever loved anyone before, hey silly girl, i'm begging you ( Read more... )

Ha, sometime songs just come to you, and one did, just minutes ago. I really like it, its nice, its warm. I named it "Testament." Which means "A statement of belief." And thats what it is. The truth, how I really feel. Who knows if anyone will ever read the lyrics. I write, play, sing, and feel music, for myself first and foremost. Secondly, for ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night. I was in this big...I want to say a stable, but it was huge. I mean, made of concrete, it looked like a stable for tanks or something like that. There was a dirt floor and the lighting was ridiculously dim. I had my sword(Mimi) and I was wearing dark colors. I wasn't supposed to be there. The people in the place had ( Read more... )

Rufio makes me feel happy...

What...just happened? I really tried last week to forget. To move on. Thinking to myself that maybe if I could do it. Then this could all be over. I wouldn't have to sit still and be cold, and shake, and feel hollow. I thought I could fill myself up, heal these wounds. But theres only two things that will ever make me whole again, her, or time. ( Read more... )

In a nutshell, today was awesome, mainly because I hang out with Chris all day and had an amazing band practice. We finshed our song Aim For The Head, and we have it down pretty awesomely, not to mention we have, three, count em, three new songs that we're currently working on, and they all sound awesome. I forgot how much a good band pracitce will ( Read more... )

It hurts right now, again. I was doing pretty good. These past few days I've been able to handle the stress and my emo-shuns well enough that it wasn't a big deal. But you know, right now I just feel lonely. Matte dare ga sabishii. And really theres nothing to fill that void. I'm hit with these truths that I know, that I'd swear on my life to. I ( Read more... )

Just got back from Night of The Living FRED, I am really proud of our radio show, its gotten a great deal of praise from the staff and i'm very happy about it. I'm going to watch Cool Runnings, then get a good night sleep for once. Hopefully. Nothing new to report, i'm still here, still trying to see through grey skies, still painting the town her ( Read more... )