There are a lot of things I have failed to admit, and failed to remember or think about. My past is one huge mess of heartbreak and anger... and confusion. I surpressed all of these emotions. Tonight I had a sudden urge to log into my old myspace account, and it started with the old photos and comments and grew into lets see what happened in these ( Read more... )

I am so sick of planning things, and letting people know how things are going to happen. I'm done, actually.

I am only a human. I get sad, and I'm not a machine I cannot work forever. I work too much, and im tired. I have a 24 hour headache. I hardly ever fucking complain.

Today, my grandmother got sent to the hostpital. She could have died. She is ( Read more... )

It's been hard to focus lately. I have been moving non-stop. I kept telling myself that when school got out I would feel better and less tired. I keep feeling like I have less energy every day. The nice part is the money. Thats the only good part ( Read more... )

Summer isn't exactly what I expected. I never see Parker. Or it feels like I dont. I miss being with him. Today means 8 months. Which is a really long time. And I love him so much ( Read more... )

I have way too much to do. I'm working all the time, so I never get to see Parker. I also have this stupid summer class that I'm thinking I should have just taken online next semester. Whatever.

I just have way too much to do and no time to do it.

I'm home. Finally. Just like I've wanted to be all week. But I've come to realize that this isnt the same home that I have welcomed back into my life for years. I see so many things more clearly now. The walls of this house and the confinment of this room are smothering me.

I feel more trapped than ever. My parents are struggling to control me. I  ( Read more... )

I love Thursdays. I slept in until 10 today with Parker. Absolutely awesome start to my day.

I have to make time however to go to the lab and finish my accounting either today or tomorrow. And I have to take a shower.

Its so weird all the things you forget to do when your so busy. Im the worst at multitasking. I can't believe next week is finals.

I ( Read more... )

I'm very excited I'm currently on the computer that Parker built for me, which was way too nice of him and I loves a lot. Everything is sleek and black and adorable and yay!

I'm down to about 3 more weeks until summer vacation without counting finals, which I discovered that I get out on Thursday the 7th because I don't have any exams on Friday. I' ( Read more... )

This week is finally almost over. But not quite. I still need to clean this room a bit. My side is a huge mess, I dont know how Jess deals with it. I want to move the old coffee maker out. Pack my bags for home so I can do some laundry. Get coffee from work. Check to see how little money I have in the bank. Then maybe go get my nose pierced, maybe ( Read more... )

I am so stressed out trying to pull grades up, and im so excited about summer almost being here. I'm still working everything out with my major change and everything. It is all very fusterating, but well worth it ( Read more... )