sooo...a reccomendation to all you folks out there....if your tryin to study for a test...weed will help you focus! but! and here is the downfall. whilst taking said test you may begin to feel EXTREMELY tired and almost fall asleep drooling all over your scantron! HAHAHA. anyways. last night was fun. honestly i didnt get much studyin done...but i ( Read more... )

so work was soooooo long. i just got home and its like 1:30. eek. but anyways im about to go back out but i gotta be sneaky cause my mom is still up. i just dont want to tell her im goin anywhere cause the first thing she would ask is like "you going to see some girl?" lol...one day im just gonna be like. YES! and we are going to have LOTS OF SEX. ( Read more... )

yea so im headed to work in a few minutes..jus wanted to update real quick. things have been great. school is goin pretty well...life is goin pretty well. im going to NYC for my 21st birthday...things are gonna be great! i think im goin to see hooba tomorrow night...me and the sister might go...i really like them so it should be good. then im goin ( Read more... )

this explains how im feeling about myself...and about so many other people in my life ( Read more... )

today is kinda a hard day. mom tried to make it special by getting us takeout and buying me a present...which was really sweet and all. jus i dunno...sucks kinda i guess. not having someone...and watching everyone around you that does...trying really hard to be happy for them. funny thing is...i could have that...weird how i want it...yet im so ( Read more... )

So earlier i was taking a nap...and i realized as i was fallin asleep...that im used to sleeping alone now. that makes me sad in some ways...but it means im finally getting over everything. I'm still not the person i want to be...but you know what im getting there. I wish i could say i regret the experiences i've had in the past week...but i don't ( Read more... )

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ( Read more... )

I can't keep doing this. i'm back to that point where i feel like i deserve to be unhappy. i dont...i dont even know if i want to be in this world right now. this is my journal...i have to be honest. there are times when i dont know if its worth it...what am i accomplishing? the pain i feel right now is almost more than i can handle. the tears ( Read more... )

i wrote this today in class. i think i might actually be kinda good at this writing thing. who knows where it will take me. but its a really good release ( Read more... )

ok so...shit like last night just never happens to me...i mean dude i don't even look gay and this girl like slips me her number while im at work. nuts! well i dont even know her last name. but i dunno it was good...she just made me feel like wanted...more then i've ever felt before...and i dont even know if i will ever see her again. is it bad ( Read more... )