Holy crap. Hi LiveJournal. It's been a really, really, really long time since I've posted here ( Read more... )

Eh not much. Just came home from a family function and I am kinda killing time until dilation ( Read more... )

Have I mentioned that before? I pee myself all the time now, so it's so I don't pee on the bed. Ok, ok, it's not like a full-on pee, but I constantly leak urine. I guess the catheterization royally screwed my urethral sphincters. Le sigh ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while ( Read more... )

I guess it's true that things start getting easier after three months. This month has been... not good... but better than month three. I was able to re-incorporate the medium dilator. My typical session involves using the small for about 60 minutes, then switch to the medium for 20 minutes. I've kind of abandoned the idea of "getting to depth" ( Read more... )

Janelle is at Pony Island for the weekend. That would be Assateague Island, Maryland/Virgina, which has wild ponies. She went with her best friend from Harrisburg ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in two weeks or so. I am one day shy of sixteen weeks and ten days shy of four months ( Read more... )

And things still suck. There are some positives however. The granulation tissue around my urethra is starting to lessen. I think it might be gone in two or three more weeks. Also, the ambient pain level has decreased. I'm down to taking about 1600 mg of ibuprofen a day (from 2400 mg/day). I only need a sleeping pill maybe once a week now, sometimes ( Read more... )

One difficult thing about dilation is that it makes me feel like I have to pee. Actually, it makes me leak pee as well, but there's nothing I can do about that. During the course of a dilation session the monumental feeling of having to pee just builds. I usually pee right before hand but I guess it someone consistently pushes on my bladder during ( Read more... )

The intense background pain continues apace. I've had to start taking xanax, left over from Thailand, to fall asleep at night. Otherwise the pain just keeps me up all night. At first I took a whole xanax, but that made me so groggy in the morning. So now I take half of one. I still feel a little off, but it's way better than being up all night due ( Read more... )