Well I dont know if anyone reads these anymore but, I have very little to do lately so I thought I'd update. I cant fill you in on everything thats happened sense I last wrote, because so much has changed. But know this, I am officailly a grown up now. Chris and I have been together so long now that we act like were married, with the exception that ( Read more... )

i've gone from doing absolutely nothing to being busy from waking until i fall asleep everyday. i go to school, work, run my dad all around town to support his fight against 'the man', and through that i squeese in any time with chris i can. all of this means i haven't worked on my art in several weeks. luckily i'm sick with what seems like a ( Read more... )

well this license thing is pretty cool. it makes my home life a little busier. my dad will need rides everywhere. i work at ace hardware now. it's alright. i cant wait to get my first paycheck. schools going great. they give me assignments and i turn them in completed. it's like i'm a student or something. i heard will left for colledge. sucks, ( Read more... )

i never thought chris and mark could exist in the same universe let alone in the same house. for a freakin weekend. i felt like i was in the twillight zone. it was all gravy for me until the very last second. strange as it is, it felt like a train wreck creeping up on me. it was good that i had to go home. it's best to not let a good thing spoil.

wow. i am in awe at how much i like chris. there is no bullshit between us. and he can see through all my bullshit, which is good for me. i cant believe that i'm diggin him more with time. i mean, i've said that in the past to people, but between you and me; i was lying or exaggerating (same thing). it's been over six months and i haven't ( Read more... )

memories. can't listen to some of my favorite music without being attacked by memories. they used to make the music even better, i guess they still do. but none of that matters anymore because it doesn't seem to matter to anybody but me. so i'll just jump on that bandwagon. making new memories is everything, when it happens. maybe i'm just watching ( Read more... )

i've been looking forward to today for weeks to wish will a happy birthday as an excuse to call and see how he is doing. well, i called and apparently they changed their number because his old one is now a law firm. this is such a total bummer. two years of friendship befor going out with someone should be more of a reason to keep in touch with ( Read more... )

give me a scene, hwere the music is free. and the beer is not the life of the party. theres no need to shit talk or impress, b/c honesty and emotion are not looked down apon. every promise thats made and bragged, is meant if not kept. we do it all because we have to, not because we know why. beyond gender, race and class we can find what really ( Read more... )

no one to listen. no one to say a good damned thing to. everyone says they're always there for me,to talk to. well, everyones intitled to change their mind. i've got so much shit right now and it just keeps coming.

well your my friend. and can you see. many times, we've been out drinkin'. many times we've shared our thoughts. but did you ever, ever notice the kind of thoughts i got. you know i have a love, a love for everyone i know. and you know i have a drive, to live, i wont let go. but can you see its opposition come rising up sometimes ( Read more... )