jesses day was wonderful. in the morning she woke up late when she wanted to. she took the lee tran home in the beautiful cape coral afternoon. when she got home she ate and listened to music. and for the rest of the after noon she practiced yoga. she took a long shower with her handy-dandy vibrator, got dressed, and went on a walk and picked ( Read more... )

i don't know what to say again. my jealousy is spreading like a fire again. it's threatening to grow out of control if i don't kill it somehow soon. i don't know what to do to make myself better. and i wonder how people see me, if it's near how i know i am. a level or two below. i can disguise my self all day everyday, and the fact will never ( Read more... )

i don't even know if i believe in god, or if he can hear me even if he does exist. but i prayed for her anyway. she's dumb. she's mean. she's manipulative. she's mentally fucked up. but she's my sister. and nobody deserves to lose an arm. especially when they're a young attractive girl and that's all they got going. i preyed for something that will ( Read more... )

my brother jon is being released on the fourth of july. i cant wait to see him. i think i'm bowling tonight ( Read more... )

got to love the distillers. been looking up their lyrics lately. they rock so hard. got to love leonard cohen. been listening to him lately. got to love all his funny reverences to christ, and contributions to the natural born killers soundtrack. got to love hanson. um...err...forget i said that ( Read more... )

i just very recently had a very bad fifteen minutes. this is it: i come home because i am in trouble. i find the new heels i got(that i haven't even worn yet)all ripped to shit from my sisters pitbull, scar. then i go to put on a shirt and i find out quikly that my cat has pissed in two of my drawers, thus all over my clothes. while all this is ( Read more... )

been very emotional tonight. it feels good. even crying. especially crying. especially when its not neccesarily sadness. have a cough right. so i took these pill things, work well but make me feel funny. and some tussen caz my throat hurts. and some of this perscription stuff left over from when i had chronic bronchitis, to sleep b/c it's some ( Read more... )

1.if i had one day left to live i'd go to australia to see a platypus.
2.5 fav. albums. i dont own cds so none i guess. sorry.
3.if i could undo anything in history it would be julia roberts birth. i hate her, you see.
4.body hair attracts me most to a man
5.yoga intructer for kids/artist of coarse.

i'm stupid. not entirely, but mostly very stupid. well, at least i'm happy. not entirely, but mostly very happy. i'm not always pretty, but i am sometimes. sometimes, i'm glad i'm a normal looking person and not one of those perfect inhuman creepy beautiful people. same goes for smarts. i watch the history channel. do you know what happens to the ( Read more... )

yesterday, is my final proof that everyone has fate working for them. at least every once in a while. and when it happens it really saves our asses. i'm exhausted. long weekend. all the bad things that happened really made things turn out best for everyone. i mean, no one got arrested. i guess you had to be there to understand. everyone have fun ( Read more... )