The years go by but the more things change the more they stay the same. I'm losing faith, losing hope, everything. I hate my life. I've worked so hard, tried so hard... but I'm spinning my wheels. Nobody ever wants to date the tranny. Post-op and a million times better off than I was a decade ago... and yet, by my math, a shitty life, even ( Read more... )

Wow, so it's actually been over a year since I last posted an entry. Nothing much has been happening to me- I spent most of that time doing the mundane. Went to school, had some dates, made new friends, just an average life. Which is all to the good really but doesn't make for the most interesting of journal entries. I started a 10 year journal ( Read more... )

So if you do something nice I think it rather ruins it if you turn around and brag about it... Despite this I wanted to write about something nice I did recently. This poor homeless man came up to me on the street in front of Starbucks. He looked dead tired and freezing cold and he wanted money for a cup of coffee. I didn't have any money (I ( Read more... )

I finally did it. I cut my hair short! I don't mean to sound vain or anything but...

I look sooo totally hot now ;)

Today I had to get up early to go in for a store meeting on my day off. Lame ( Read more... )

I got my tongue pierced today! Wohoo ( Read more... )

So over the last few months I've had this almost constant internal debate that basically goes like this ( Read more... )

So tonight I found out that my grandma was rushed to the hospital. This has happened a couple of times before but tonight just something made me feel it was more serious or perhaps it simply felt more real? But I'm really freaked out right now. Big fat tears rolling down my face racked with sobs that sort of thing. I don't know what it is but I ( Read more... )

I broke up with Laura. My mind is split in two. I feel as though I’ve escaped a trap I’d been caught in and yet still I cry at night and can’t sleep until I’m so exhausted I pass out. Things were so wonderful. In Laura I had found nearly everything I’d been looking for in a partner... and then seemingly over night it all changed. I couldn’t ( Read more... )

So there's only less than two weeks until my surgery and I'm practically bouncing off the walls in anticipation. And if that wasn't enough exciting news the impossible happened... Or at least what seemed impossible to me... Laura and I got back together! I'm shocked, super happy, and realy realy realy realy scared all at the same time... I don ( Read more... )