So tonight I was idoly rumenating on an old memory of mine. Back when I was about seventeen, dressing up so carefully to see this girl I had a crush on. We went to her church that night to study the bible... I got out of religion when I was 14 didn't I? But old habbits die hard... She would have been my last crush before I had my first real ( Read more... )

So it seams as if I only ever post to my journal when I have a bad day. Today I wanted to post 'cause I had a very nice couple of things happen that totally made my day. I want to remember that moment. The day started out rather poorly. The details don't matter but suffice to say I was in a piss poor mood. But then, Mid day, Laura stoped by my ( Read more... )

So the boss at work who has been making my life so f-ing hard the last several months has just been fired. Over the last two weeks he's been called down to several meetings at the corporate office and one of the heads of our company actually called me asking me to write a letter about things I'd witnessed... so I did but I was only expecting some ( Read more... )

So let me think, what's been going on over the last month? I can't think of too much. I've had a ton of planning for my surgery. At this point it looks like I'll be driving to Colorado with Laura and her boyfriend Ryan which sounds like a lot of fun. I'm still kinda bumbed with my Papa for flaking like that but I can't complain, he is still ( Read more... )

So tonight my thoughts are centered on being trans... well, not be trans perse, but what its effect has had on me in a world that hates people like me ( Read more... )

I have a date for surgery! November 29th!!! Possibly the most important date in my entire life and it's only 5 and a half months away! Ack, the last couple of days have been torture. I know I thought about it a lot before (daily) but now it's like omnipresent. I don't think I've ever wanted anything more in my entire life... well, there was ( Read more... )

So livejournal has been totally freakin' anoying for the last couple of weeks. It kept freezing my computer any time I would try to use it. So I finally figured out that for some reason firefox and livejournal didn't like each other anymore and used internet explorer to pull it up. Now it's working fine but I'm remembering just how much I hate ( Read more... )

When I was in the third grade there was an incident that occured during PE. My whole class was playing a game of dodgeball which had gotten extremely competitive. There was lots of arguing and shouting over rules and plays and such. My teacher mediated well but at one point had to go speak with another member of the faculty. At this point an ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot about my surgery lately. What exactly will it mean to me? At the top of the list is a vaguely defined feeling of normalacy that's difficult to explain but I think understandable. There's health reasons, it reduces the risks of certain cancers (especially testicular and breast) by reducing the amount of estrogen I take ( Read more... )

Wow, so it's been three years since I went full time. Quite a nice milestone in itself for me but this particular anniversary also marks three years of estrogen which supposedly means I've reached full maturity... So how do I feel three years later ( Read more... )