I dreamt I was waiting or putting something off or hiding out in a hotel suite. I’m not sure what for, and I don’t think it’s important. I wanted a lot of candles burning for some reason. I kept lighting candles and incense in all the rooms. It seems like the candles were an OCD coping mechanism against fear and avoidance.

I kept burning more ( Read more... )

Memory... memory.... mmmm... what was I saying?

So, I am trying right now to remember how I wound up on livejournal tonight.
I'm trying to remember an LJ friend.
I'm remembering a post from seven years ago.
I'm thinking in nice, tight circles.
I think I'm going to reread my LJ

So, I am trying now to remember how I wound up on livejournal tonight ( Read more... )

I've come to the conclusion that social media is dangerous for some people ( Read more... )

Greed:Very Low

Gluttony:Low

Wrath:Low

Sloth:Low

Envy:Very Low

Lust:High

Pride:Medium

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I don't know how I scored so high on lust. I'm not surprised by any of this, but I didn't notice any questions to give that impression. I think wrath and pride would be switched.

Yay food poisoning. I have shivering chills and what is coming ou of me is got lava. I have been smited. I should better than to eat my mothers leftovers cause she gets forgetful and leaves that shit out for hours.

Word count: 6,077 ( Read more... )

I've often wondered why, if I consider myself a writer, do I have so little motivation to write? When I am writing I really want to keep writing and the more I write the more I want to write, but I can easily slip, lose steam, or through necessity go a time without writing and I'm right back to the stagnant lack of motivation ( Read more... )

I never stopped missing livejournal, but it's not livejournal I miss. I miss lj a decade ago when I had more than a hundred people to read and I would get a dozen plus comments on posts ( Read more... )

Why did I have a bunch of Russian language journals on my page? I never added these people.

The feelings, the ramifications are flowing. I'm getting more and more angry and upset. It's not like I really blocked these things out. I remembered them. but I was detached. I faced ask the worst things a child could face alone. The abuse, the rejection, the unfair punishment, the bullying, I faced it alone, because I thought it was happening to ( Read more... )