I have long wondered how I could of gone from a young child who would dance and do elvis impersonations at my grandparents parties, and sing and dance in stage productions in kindergarten and first grade to an adult who's scared to do karaoke and gets really shy around people. how is it that I can crave and enjoy large groups and be deathly ( Read more... )

I'm at work in the bridge house listening to a band called one dove and feeling intellectually restless ( Read more... )

Having relationship troubles... I'd say this is far from the best time for this sort of thing, but maybe with all the death and professional stress it has left me more open to honest reflection ( Read more... )

have most of my grandmother's stuff cleared out of drawers and closets. There are many pairs of shoes to give away to charity many outfits to give away the charity. She left behind about 20-25 photo albums and 10 -11 shoe boxes of photos and negatives. There are books, postcards, love letters, etc from the forties. Going through her stuff has ( Read more... )

Going through my grandmothers paperwork and stuff, throwing out stuff that might have been really important a week ago and is now irrelevant and stuff that might have been irrelevant a week ago and is now priceless ( Read more... )

it's been a month since I started working as a bridge tender, and in that time I've really gotten the ball rolling with the writing and the studying and reading. I've surprised myself with some of the advancements that I've made and some of the poetry that I've written in that time ( Read more... )

After a long nap ( Read more... )

My grandmother died Friday afternoon. She didn't look human anymore. her forehead and use stretched out. Her arms looked unnaturally long and her hands huge. It was like all signs of life left ( Read more... )

my grandmother's wasting away physically and mentally. My mother's becoming more dependent and manipulative. I'm committed to a short term strategy of avoidance and denial. My efforts to fix and improve my credit and consolidate my student loans are being met with many barricades. I'm not scared that I won't be able to relieve these situations in ( Read more... )

so it's the end of my four day bridge work week. I get off in about 40 minutes and then an hour and a half later i begin work at school. I'm already tired, I'm already wishing for a nap and I still haven't even gotten started the second job ( Read more... )